Obligatory Precursor: This happened 15 years ago in my final year of high school. It was an event that changed my view on life and still haunts me to this day.
Some background: In my country, they took Christianity seriously. You were raised Christian, at school, we had Bible lessons/ scripture readings every morning before class started and your social life pretty much revolved around the church. When this event occurred, I was a youth leader in my church and even had a key to open the church every Friday evening and Sunday. I was a pretty awkward kid though; a bit weird and perhaps a little eccentric. So didn’t have that many friends in school (2 to be exact). Was a real social outcast back then. We also lived about 60 km away from school and I had to wait 4 to 5 hours after school for my mom to pick me up so we could go home. All these facts will be important for later.
So there were a bunch of things that happened leading up to the event.
It all started in January of my final year in high school. As last year students we had slightly more ‘privileges’ than all the other students. For one, every Monday morning we would all meet in a big Hall for Bible reading and the announcements for the week. Here all the younger students would sit on the icy cold floor at the bottom, and the final year students (and the very few girls) would sit in on chairs at the top of the gallery overlooking the big Hall. This was always made out to be a major privilege. We also had a choice to attend sports events like rugby or athletics (where for the younger students, it was obligatory).
One of the major sporting events at the beginning of the year was this inter-high school athletics competition. On one day in January, all the schools in the area would compete against each other to find the best athletes so they could be nominated to represent the area in provincial competitions. At these competitions, all the students from each school would need to attend as 'spectators'. Final-year students had a choice of whether or not they wanted to go. However, this year this event was moved to another school and there wasn't enough space for each school's entire populous. Therefore only the first-year and final-year students were 'forced' to go. Given that final-year students always had a choice in the past, and that this event was on a Friday...me and my two friends (Let's call them Dr Dre and The Wizard) decided to stay at home on that day and make a long weekend out of it.
Dr Dre was the only 'normal' one in my little group of friends. Dr Dre was really into rap music, he had good relationships with the teachers, all the different clicks of students (from the jocks to the geeks) liked him and he was overall a really decent kid (very wise and intelligent for his age). The Wizard, on the other hand was a very tall, blond Dutch boy that was into bizarre things. People found him to be extremely weird but didn't pick on him. He liked catching mice in the field, skinning them, and making stuff from their skins. He was (in his own mind) into wizardry (he identified as a dark wicca - dark witch). He was just overall very weird.
Anyway, the Monday morning after the athletics event, my two friends and I went to the big hall for the daily weekly Bible lesson and announcements as was customary. We sat at the top of the gallery and waited for the 'plebs' to fill the hall at the bottom. When everyone took their seats, two prefects (student leaders) came to the gallery and said that everyone that wasn't at the event on Friday would need to sit at the bottom with the plebs for the rest of the year. Apparently, they handed out little cards on Friday and well, we didn't have them... So my friends and I awkwardly stood up and made out way down the stairs. Halfway down, I told them that it was bullshit that we had to go sit with the 'kids'. The Wizard then said : "I say we just go sit outside the hall and refuse to go in... Make a statement".
At the time, we thought it was a good idea and went to go sit outside. About 15 mins later, a prefect (student leader) came to ask us why we were sitting outside. I responded, "it's none of your business" and he proceeded to go call one of the teachers. Our mathematics teacher (a short, mid-40s balding Greek man) came outside and asked why we were sitting there.... Without thinking, The Wizard said : "It's against our religion". The teacher asked what religion it was and we didn't respond. He turned around and walked away.We didn't mention which religion we were and at the time, we thought it was a brilliant response.
Later the day, we were in our homeroom class. The intercom went off (it broadcasts over the entire school), and an old woman's voice asked The Wizard, Dr Dre and I to go to the principal's office. Obviously the story had already spread across the entire school and everyone knew what this was about. We went to his office and sat on the old wooden benches in in front of his door. Dr Dre was the first to be asked to go in. Ten mins later, he comes out and returns to class. The Wizard and I were then asked to come in together.
The principal asked us to sit down and proceeded to ask us to explain the situation. Not willing to give up on the jig... We proceeded to stick to our story. He then asked if we were Satanists. The Wizard then responded and said something that would put me on a path prolonged psychological trauma. The Wizard said.... Yes. (Although he obviously wasn't). The principal then proceeded to ask questions why and how and when... It felt like we were sitting there for hours. The Wizard said that he was in it for power and control.. (All the time I'm thinking... WTF Dude!). I was quite throughout the entire session.. Mostly because I was afraid but primarily because I was shocked of the things that came out of his mouth. Around an hour later, we were asked to leave and return to class... And I thought the situation was resolved...
The next day at 7am all the students lined up in the quad as we always did from Tuesday till Friday. The principal did his Bible reading and the did his announcements. His final announcement sent shivers down my spine. He said that he made it his mission to destroy the satanic rituals and satanists in the school. At this stage it felt like all the students heads turned towards me.
With the 'extra' incentive, most students started to bully me, and I was consistently made fun of. Given that both Dr Dre and The Wizard were mucho gym junkies, no one picked on them... So I took the brunt of the students' and teachers' wrath. This went on for about 3 months. By the end of the three months, people already forgot that Dr Dre and The Wizard were involved in the matter... And I was basically now labelled as the school demon.... The face of the 'satanic cult' in the school. Already an outcast, my life was now an absolute living hell... The smart-ass remark to get us not to sit at the bottom of the hall, had now turned into a life of constant physical and psychological torture (from students and teachers).
Although I kept telling everyone that I wasn't a satanist and it was The Wizard lying to get us out of sitting with the younger students, no one believed me. Everything 'weird' that happened at the school was now always made out to be my fault. I even talked to the principal and even had my pastor from the church phone him. But nothing ever came of it. I just wanted the torture to stop, but no one would believe me.
So this brings me to D-day. The last Friday of the semester, the school came out at 11:00 (it usually came out at 14:00). Although the school was out and everyone was on their way home for the start of the summer vacation, I still had to stay at school till around 17:30 for my mom to come pick me up after work so we could go home. Around 11:30 the school was empty and I went to sit under my usual tree and entertained myself with SNAKE on my Nokia 5110.
Mid-game I saw the vice principal and the teacher that was in charge of religious studies walk up to me. They asked very politely if I wanted to take a ride with them. I declined, saying that my mom would be here at any moment to pick me up. The vice principal said he already spoke to my mom (which turned out to be a lie!) and she would only be there around 18:00. Fair enough. He caught me out in my BS excuse, and given that that was the usual time she would pick me up... I didn't think to question it further.
We walked to his car and I asked where we were going. He said he wanted to introduce me to 'a friend' of his. We climbed into his car and drove about 15 mins to a church. I knew the church because that was where the school's Minister (kinda like a priest) worked. This Minister was big and wobbly... And looked as if he could afford to skip a few meals. A pudgy fellow with rosy cheeks, a massive belly and this weird blueish-grey eyes that always seemed as if they stared through you when he looked at you. Let's call him Minister Bear.
So we get there and I felt my heart sink into my shoes. I knew where this was going. I was escorted around the church and led into a darkish room at the back of the building. As my eyes adjusted from the bright sun, to the darkish room, I saw Minister Bear, sitting behind his antique yellow wood desk. He welcomed my two teachers, stood up, and walked around the desk. As his friendly eyes move slowly away from my teachers, towards me... It systematically turned into this deep look of concern and fear. He locked the door next to me and said in a deep serious voice, "I feel a very dark presence in this room". And thanked my teachers for bringing me there.
He told my teachers to sit in the corner and ushered me to a chair in front of his desk. He sat down and proceeded to ask me a bunch of personal questions. It started innocent enough, like who I was and where I lived, through to have I ever had sex and if I'm gay (a taboo subject where I was from). The questions became ever darker and each time I would answer he would tell my teacher's "This isn't ManicSheep talking".
He then asked me if I was a satanist, to which I responded with a clear NO! I told him I was a youth leader in my church and that he could phone my pastor to ask. He would then respond by saying things like "Don't lie to me demon! Release this child of God ". The more I woud deny his claims, the more he would tell my teacher's that they needed to pray because the demon has a very strong hold over me.
This went on for about 2 hours. I looked at my watch and it was already 14:30. He would ask me what the demon in me's name was and how many of them were in me. I kept denying it and eventually burst out in tears, begging him to let me go. He said to my teachers that this was the demons way to want to escape, that he was getting closer to getting 'them' to release me. He asked me about satanist rituals and between every question he would ask... He would pray under his breath. No matter how much I cried, he didn't want to stop. I stood up and screamed that I am going to phone the police and ran to the door... Tried to open it... Shakes the handle... But the door was locked.
"You won't escape this room with this child l, demon" he would yell. I fell on the ground crying, saying my mom was looking for me and I just wanted to go home. At this stage, he picked me up with both hands and held me in the air. He pushed me against the wall and started praying louder. As I struggled to get free he yelled for my teachers to come put their hands on me and pray .. As the demons were loosing Control.
I was afraid for my life. As a kid of 17, I didn't know what was going on. I remember thinking about how can they feel a dark presence as I spend all my time at church. Why don't they want to phone my pastor? Why won't they believe me.
At this stage I realized that the only way out of this was to act out the role they clearly wanted me to play. That would be the only way out of the locked room. I tried to pull my tears back and looked him in the eyes.. And tried to push the quiver in my voice down. "OK you got me Minister." I said." You can have the child". He immediately dropped me and took a couple of steps back.
He started repeating the questions from earlier and told my teachers to pray harder as we were now getting to the crux of the matter. They needed to 'cast him out'. I kept responding to the questions in the way I thought they wanted. I then started speaking German backwards as they started praying harder. At this stage I just wanted to get out of there.
After what felt like years, they finally stopped and I fell to the ground. Minister Bear said... It's done. Laying on the ground, the tears again started balling out my eyes (this time out of total relief). They asked me how I felt and I couldn't stop crying. I just wanted to go home. I lied again and said I felt relieved and lighter and was unsure what was going on or how I got there.
The Minister then told me I was possessed by a series of demons (I can't remember the name he gave it) and that they were holding on deeply to my soul. That it took hours for them to cast them out. But I am free now, and that is why I felt so light and that crying is normal. He prayed one more time and gave me his number. He told me to come see him next week and that I should phone him if I feel something is coming back.
They finally unlocked the door. I stood there silently, not knowing if I was actually free to go. Still shaking I looked at my watch... It was 17:45 and I knew my mom was waiting for me at school. The teachers then asked if it was OK to go. They then took me back to the school and dropped me off at my mom's car.
I climbed in and burst into tears. My mom asked what was wrong and I explained. She then told me that I probably just misunderstood what was going on and that she would speak to the principal. Nothing ever came of this.
This was by far one of the most traumatic events in my life. Although I know I contributed to the situation, 15 years later, as a trained and registered psychologist, the matter still haunts me...

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General hardware recommendations

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1. i7 chip is where our suggestions start.. Know the generation of the chip. 12xxx is this year's chipset - and a good place to start. More or less, each lower first number means older chips. How to decode chip info.
2. A video card with 2+GB of VRam. 4 is even better.
3. An SSD is suggested - and will likely be needed for caching.
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• "I want a laptop as my sole system." The MacBook Pro 16 inch @ $3899. This is the M2 Max 12 Cores. 64 GB of RAM. 1 TB SSD. Great screen. Three Thunderbolt Ports.
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The Lineup:

• Chapter 1 (2013-2017):
• The Batman
• Superman: Man Of Steel
• The Batman 2: Heart Of Ice
• Batman Vs Superman: World's Finest
• Wonder Woman
• Green Lantern Corps
• The Flash
• Aquaman
• Suicide Squad
• Justice League

HBO Television Series:

• The Batman: The Early Years
• Catwoman: The Jewel Thief
• Doctor Fate
• Hawkman and Hawkgirl
• Blackhawk

OUTLINE OF THE MOVIES
A detailed outline of plot-lines, changes and in-universe connections.

The Batman:

The Plot: This events of this movie would stay exactly the same.
My Major Changes: Batman is in his fourth year in my version of the film, he's not an experienced veteran like Ben Affleck's interpretation, he still has a lot to learn, but he isn't totally inexperienced like in the film we got. This would be done in a similar way to The New 52. I believe that Pattinson can play a Batman who has sidekicks before, but after Jason's death, he becomes more emo, like in the movie we got.
Batman, in my DCEU, already had adopted Dick Grayson, Barbara Gordon, Jason Todd and Helena Bertinelli. Bruce hasn't adopted or even met Tim Drake, Stephanie Brown, Cassandra Cain, or Damian Wayne yet.
Dick Grayson left on extremely bad terms with Batman in a similar way to in the animated series episode "Old Wounds"
Jason Todd gets lured into a circus, similar to Titans, and is killed on live television by The Joker, similar to Earth-27.
Huntress left Bruce, due to the trauma of Jason Todd's death, since they were dating at the time, similar to Earth 27.
Barbara Gordon got shot in the spine and raped by The Joker, like in The Killing Joke storyline, it happened shortly before Jason got killed. Barbara doesn't become Oracle until a few months after the events of the first movie.
Batwoman is a cousin of Batman, and Bruce is aware of her activities.
This would be subtly mentioned in my version, and Dick leaving and Jason's death are a few additional reasons why Bruce acts like an edgelord and doesn't have that playboy persona anymore (at least until the sequels)
Batman, before the events of this film, has already fought The Joker, Killer Croc, Harley Quinn, Killer Moth, Deadshot, Poison Ivy and Ra's Al Ghul. There would be newspaper clippings that mention these off-screen encounters.
The Joker deleted scene is added in my version, to establish that he exists in this universe, if the post-credit scenes didn't do it already.
Metropolis and Queen Industries are mentioned during Bruce's meeting with Falcone. Setting up the larger DC Universe, in the future.
I would place emphasis that Batman is struggling to make change in Gotham on his own, without his sidekicks to assist him, he only has Alfred, Catwoman and Gordon to rely on, since Dick, Barbara, and Helena, have left on bad terms or to do their own thing in neighboring cities, and Jason is deceased (for now).
That also explains why Batman calls himself "Vengeance". He's on his own with barely anyone to help him, just like how he was when his parents died. (Aside from Alfred)
Bruce's utility belt gets blown up during the final battle. Which sets up him getting a more comic accurate one, in the future.
However, he still uses the adrenaline injection, and I'd later tie that to Bane and his venom formula, in a future movie as a prototype.

Superman: The Man Of Steel

The Plot - Act-1: I’d heavily change the opening, develop Zod more, and make a cleaner Krypton that actually has crystals covering the planet, just like in the comics and in Superman (1978)
(I'd replace General Zod with Metallo as the antagonist, because Zod has already appeared in Superman ll and Smallville, by 2013, so I'd use a new villain that never appeared on the big screen in Metallo, who only appeared on Smallville with a small budget and we never fully saw his robotic form. I'd save General Zod for the third movie)
We see a small meteor found in the ocean, near Metropolis, by Lex Luthor, with a glowing green substance.
We flashback to many years ago, Kal-El is born, they name him. We cut to General Zod who is sitting in his home alone, having violent flashbacks of robotic creatures with symbols on their foreheads attacking krypton, killing people, even Zod’s family, the flashbacks are brief, but just enough to see the Kryptonian council surrender to their attacker, a dome encloses over Kandor and make it disappear, but a pod flies away as Kandor disappears.
(That will set up Supergirl in Chapter 2, and Brainiac fighting Superman eventually)
Dru-Zod is haunted and angry about this traumatic event that happened ago. Jor-El is studying problems in the planet’s core, but their computers say everything is fine. Jor-El asks Zod to come with him to check a fault line, as a scientist needs to be accompanied by a soldier when going to the outer lands, to access military equipment or whatever, just as a soldier needs authorization by a scientist to access scientific equipment.
They talk, it’s clear they’re friends, Jor-El tells Zod about his son, happy for him. Suddenly a violent earthquake erupts, causing Jor-El to quickly check his readings. They’re off the charts. Jor-El and Zod quickly rushes back to his lab to check his main computers, which are all reading things as fine, he digs deeper into the programming and finds the same symbol that was on the robotic creatures head embedded into the computers programming, corrupting it.
Jor-El is horrified, Zod is furious, yelling about how that thing destroyed their families, their brightest city, and now it’s destroyed them, Zod blames the council for bowing to the thing and proclaims them weak. Jor-El warns the council, as Zod rallies any soldiers loyal to him to save their world while they still can, he does so easily, they attack the council headquarters and take them out, Zod finds Jor-El, and asks him to help him save their world through allowing access to The Codex.
The Codex is a computer chip, essentially it’s the brain, it has info on everything, from the genetic code from which all kryptonian children are created, to the entire history of Krypton and all its knowledge, and the how to build and operate a terraforming device called the World Engine, as such a thing has been illegal for a long time due to it requiring a planet with an already habitable environment and thus life.
(Brainiac would get the information about how to build and use The World Engine in a sequel)
Jor-El refuses Zod, saying he will not allow Zod to destroy an entire race. Jor-El escapes, accesses the codex, steals it and goes to Lara, telling her they have to leave. Jor-El has set a warning for the planet to give them time to escape, but doubts they’ll be able to as a military security system destroys any ship entering or leaving krypton, but Jor-El has a plan:
A space probe, small enough to sneak past the security systems, but big enough to carry maybe one person, or one person and a baby. The probe was designed to send robotic drones to other planets and test the planet’s atmosphere and environment. He sends Lara and Kal-El to the probe, and she goes, begrudgingly, as Jor-El gives her the codex and a special command key for the probe that will guide them when they get to earth, telling her he has to distract Zod’s men to keep them from the probe.
Lara is wounded fatally, from a plasma shot by one of Brainiac's drones, but she gets into the probe with Kal-El and takes off. She hides the codex in the main engine of the probe just before this happens.
Zod captures Jor-El, and sees the probe doing that teleporting thing, he puts two and two together and takes Jor-El prisoner, gets on a large ship with his army, and shuts down the security systems, so he can track the ion trail or whatever science mumbo jumbo before it dissipates.
Jor-El, though, has thought ahead, and damaged the teleportation device thing, making it so it would trap them in the “phantom zone” between the teleportation destinations, giving the trail time to dissipate so they can’t track it.
General Zod, Faora and Nam-Ek are all caught in the vortex, and sent to The Phantom Zone, by the teleportation device.
(General Zod and Faora will return in a future sequel)
Jor-El closes his eyes as he is caught in the planet destroying explosion, as we see Krypton blown to smithereens, as a green remnant goes through a radiation storm and crashes in The Atlantic Ocean. As we cut to Earth, where the probe crashes in Kansas at night, near a farm in winter, Jonathan and Martha come out. Lara, barely alive, opens the probe, by pulling the command key out, and they find her, Jonathan tries to save her, but she dies, her last words before passing away are asking them to protect her son.
Jonathan and Martha lie to a friend of theirs in the hospital by telling them that the baby had been left on their doorstep and asking him to write down that Martha had given birth to the baby over the winter, during a recent snowstorm.
Meanwhile, Clark Kent hitchhikes across Metropolis and starts working odd jobs, researching extraterrestrial sightings, and secretly using his powers to help people in need, which results in him having to hit the road again. Clark Kent starts developing journalistic skills as he talks to people and gathers information in his quest to figure out where he came from.
We flashback to Clark Kent's backstory, with Clark's parents trying to raise him right and help him control his powers. In the scene where Clark Kent asks his father in the original movie, which is "Should I have just let those kids on the bus die?".
Jonathan Kent tells Clark, no, and that he did the right thing, but he shouldn't expose his powers too much. During the scene, these flashbacks show that Jonathan Kent wants to keep his son Clark safe, but what kind of father would he be if he didn't encourage his son to do the right thing, even when it is hard?
Jonathan Kent is inspired by his son's selflessness and rushes in to help a lady that is about to be run over, and he succeeds, but the excitement and fear cause him to have a heart attack. Jonathan Kent gets rushed to the hospital by Martha Kent and Clark, but he dies. Years later, Martha says goodbye to Clark as he's moving to Metropolis.
Back in the present, Clark Kent goes to a bar to eat some food, but when he eats, Clark notices a drunk and rude Truck Driver harassing a female waitress.
Clark Kent hesitates a bit, but he notices no one else is stopping it, so he decides to do something about the situation. As the drunk and rude trucker is about to grab the woman inappropriately again, Clark Kent grabs his arm and he angrily tells him to leave the girl alone, which surprises the truck driver and makes him a bit scared.
However, Clark notices that his strength is hurting the man's arm, and in order to not expose his powers in front of people watching, he lets his hand go to show A bit of restraint, but Clark pushes his own to the floor, so he doesn't attack him. The truck driver gets back up from the floor and attempts to punch Clark, but Clark dodges the punch before he can be hit.
A few police officers notice the fight happen, and they decide to arrest the drunk trucker for intoxication and attempted assault against Clark Kent. Clark Kent gets thanked by the waitress for standing up for her, but Clark decides to head out to avoid any suspicions.
(The waitress will later be revealed as Lucy Lane, the younger sister of Lois Lane)
Clark decides to go downtown in Metropolis to apply for a better job. He drives there and we get shots of Metropolis. The design of Metropolis, in my rewrite, strongly resembles the version from Superman Returns.
Act 2: Later, after seeing The Daily Planet building, Clark decides to apply for a job there, and he succeeds, and this is where he first meets Lois Lane, Jimmy Olsen, Chloe Sullivan and Perry White.
Jimmy Olsen is the new kid in The Daily Planet, fresh out of college, and he becomes fast friends with Lois and Clark.
Perry White is the very stern Editor-in-Chief of the Metropolis newspaper the Daily Planet. He is Clark's boss. (I would still cast Lawrence Fishbourne)
Chloe Sullivan is witty, feisty, and cheeky reporter of The Daily Planet. She is Lois's close friend and she vaguely was acquaintances with Clark, back in his Smallville days.
Clark and Lois hit it off, despite their bickering at first, and they even agree on a date, a few weeks later. Clark and Lois interview Lex Luthor, about LEXCORP's new achievements in cybernetics. During the interview, Lex makes some unwanted advances towards Lois, which irritates Clark but he keeps his cool and stays professional.
(That is a creepy politician metaphor, kinda like a certain president from 2016, who has sexual assault allegations from at least 5 women)
Clark decides to help people publicly as Superman, as he pulls out the old black suit that Martha had made for him. After work, Clark hears an explosion, he walks as Clark rips his shirt to reveal his (Silver) Superman symbol.
After that, then John Willlams score starts as we see a montage of Clark helping people from life threatening situations and stopping robberies, as the reports of a guy flying in a gray cape stopping crime is flooding in. However, it's not entirely confirmed by the public, so some cynical people in Metropolis say it was an urban legend of some "Superman".
It's during one of these robbery encounters that Clark fought a former marine, John Corben, though his own machine gun's bullets bounced off Superman, and they ricocheted back at Corben and he's paralyzed and his body was mutilated beyond repair. A regretful Superman jumps him to a hospital, near The LEXCORP Building, (We'll get back to that later)
Later, Lois is involved in a helicopter mishap. Clark publicly uses his powers for the first time to jump high enough to catch Lois Lane falling off the damaged helicopter, as it explodes, near 'The LEXCORP tower, astonishing the crowd gathered below. Very similar to the 1978 film.
Superman is now publicly recognized, but not everyone is welcoming of this, some seeing him as dangerous for having this much power. Lex Luthor was quick to become an enemy of Superman when he accused the hero of being an alien threat to humanity. Lex also did research on the meteor that crashed, and he found out that it is deadly to Superman, Lex dubbed the green radioactive substance, "Kryptonite".
The Daily Planet was the only newspaper in existence to portray him in a positive light, with his first recorded photograph being taken by Jimmy Olsen.
Lex, along with Mercy Graves, plans to kill Superman, before he can interfere with LEXCORP and he sees Superman as a threat, due to his alien origin. It's basically Batman's motive for being against Superman in Batman Vs Superman, but pasted onto Lex Luthor, instead. Eve Teschmacher doesn't see what is wrong with Superman. She's very reminiscent of her counterpart in the 1978 film. Meanwhile, Lex Luthor goes to pay a visit to John Corben, in the hospital, after he heard the new story of his encounter with Superman.
John, by this point, is a man that was screwed over by Superman (inadvertently) and Lex made a deal with Corben that if he killed Superman, he'd get millions after the U.S. Government screwed him out of getting benefits after years of being in the marines. Feeling that he had nothing to lose, Corben agreed to the cybernetic enhancements.
LEXCORP scientists transfer his mind into an indestructible android body made of titanium alloys and powered by a Kryptonite heart. Upon the completion, Corben's android body was covered with a layer of artificial skin, which, aside from a rectangular seam which could expose his Kryptonite heart, allowed him to pass himself off as his original body.
Lex Luthor orders Metallo to cause destruction and collateral damage around Metropolis, to catch the attention of Superman. Reluctantly, Metallo rips off his human skin, revealing his robotic body from underneath.
Act-3: We see Metallo decimate Metropolis with his kryptonite powered weapons. The Military is sent in to neutralize Metallo. However, none of the machine gun rounds from the soldiers can pierce Corben's android body. Meanwhile, Clark hears a psychic call and he discovers a glowing blue crystal from the remains of his spacecraft that he keeps around. It compels Superman to fly to the Arctic where he uses the blue crystal to find The Fortress of Solitude, which strongly resembles the architecture and design of Krypton.
Inside, a hologram of Jor-El explains Clark's true origins, and after educating him on his reason for being sent to Earth and his powers, and he says to Clark,
"The people of Earth are different from us, it's true, but ultimately, I believe that is a good thing. They won't necessarily make the same mistakes we did, but if you guide them, Kal, if you give them hope. That's what this symbol means. The symbol of the House of El means "Hope". Embodied within that hope is the fundamental belief in the potential of every person to be a force for good. That's what you can bring them. They will race behind you. They will stumble. They will fall. But in time, they will join you in the Sun, Kal. In time, you will help them accomplish wonders."
Clark leaves the Fortress wearing a blue and red suit with a red cape and the House of El family crest emblazoned on his chest. It's basically the classic Superman outfit.
After seeing news coverage of Metropolis getting decimated, Clark decides to learn how to fly to save everyone, and it's the same exact scene from Man Of Steel, except when Clark does fly, The John Williams Superman Theme plays in the background instead. When Superman arrives in Metropolis, he evacuates civilians out of the city. (Because that's what Superman is supposed to be written as)
Meanwhile, Lois is about to get shot and killed by Metallo's plasma cannon, especially since she was too close to Lex's operations, as a reporter, but Superman swoops in and punches Metallo, sending the cyborg crashing into a Wayne Enterprises Building. (That's hinting at a Batman crossover)
After Superman saves her life, Lois grabs a nearby AK 47, on the pavement and evacuates Jimmy, Chloe, and Perry out of the city to be safe from all the chaos and collateral damage that Metallo is causing. Superman and Metallo have a brawl across Metropolis.
Metallo activates his kryptonite blaster and Superman is shot in the chest with it, weakening him and sending Clark crashing into a car, destroying it on impact.
Metallo absolutely bodies Clark in his weakened state. Corben is a master martial artist during his time with The Marines, and Superman is reliant on his abilities. Metallo beats down on Superman.
Metallo fires a missile at Superman, but using his reaction time, Clark turns the missile right back at Metallo, and the explosion blows a huge chunk in the torso of Metallo's cybernetic body.
Superman flies away from Metallo, momentarily for extra sunlight, to nullify the effects of the kryptonite, but Metallo has thrusters that allow him to fly at supersonic speeds.
The two engage in an aerial fight, but Superman grabs Metallo by his robotic skull and throws him into The LEXCORP Tower, tearing a hole through the skyscraper.
Superman and Metallo continue fighting in the LEXCORP Tower. When they are in close quarters, Superman freezes one of Metallo's arms and blows it up with his heat vision, knocking Metallo backwards, losing his right arm in the process.
When Metallo rushes towards Superman, Clark, in slow motion, sees an exposed chunk of wiring on the side of Metallo's torso, fires his heat vision and Metallo explodes and he is left a fiery mess, and Metallo shuts down.
Lois does find and confront Lex, thanks to Eve Teschmacher, the intern, next to Lex screams "She's got a gun!!" as Lois shoots Lex in the left arm.
When Superman arrives, Lex explains that they cannot arrest him, since he already covered the Metallo incident up, so Superman leaves with Lois, and flies away, vowing to put Luthor away in prison, one day.
Superman reveals his identity to Lois, and they still stay together as the two kiss, as the camera pans out to see the ravaged Metropolis. News Coverage, the papers and social media posts around the globe publish that Superman saves Metropolis from Metallo's terrorist attack and is a beacon of hope, just when it looked like Metropolis was about to be wiped off the map. Meanwhile, Metallo is sent back to LEXCORP and Lex repairs Corben and keeps him in a room, for something darker and nefarious…
(That is set up for The Legion Of Doom for a future Justice League sequel, especially since Steppenwolf is the villain for my rewrite of the first Justice League film)
The film ends with Superman and Lois being on their date that they promised each other, and after the date is over, Clark hears a crime, Lois kisses him and Clark suits up as Superman and flies off, with the John Willlams theme playing in the background, as the credits roll.
Post Credit Scenes: In the Batcave, Batman is watching a live video of Superman's fight with Metallo, setting up their meeting in World's Finest.
A giant skull-ship with tentacles orbits Saturn, and inside, the computer coldly states, "Kryptonian detected" and a green humanoid alien in silver armor, with his eyes glowing pink, states "Target Acquired" and smiles sinisterly.
This will set up Brainiac as a villain for a future Superman sequel, right after The Justice League.

The Batman 2: Heart Of Ice:

The Plot Act 1: The Batman 2 takes place during Christmas, and a year after the first movie. The opening scene is a flashback montage of Victor Fries and Nora falling in love and would end with the doctor saying she has cancer.
After this revelation, Victor developed a special cryogenic cell and planned to cryogenically hold Nora in there, to keep her alive, until a cure was found. However, Fries had been misappropriating GothCorp's money, which left the company in debt and the experiment unauthorized.
Fries was interrupted by GothCorp's CEO Ferris Boyle and a fight ensued and Fries grabbed a handgun, pointing it at Boyle and the security guards. Fries was then calmly ordered by Boyle to drop the gun, reasoning that it was not his nature to resort to violence and that a possibility may have existed to legitimately bankroll Nora's experiment.
Boyle's smooth talk got to Victor as he relaxed and let down his guard, allowing the deceitful CEO to kick the scientist into a lab table full of beakers which exploded. The explosion smashed him into his cryogenic freezing tanks and the accident soaked his entire body with the freezing solution and rendered him unable to survive outside of a sub-zero environment.
In the present day, Bruce Wayne has been trying to help and go out in public more and has his playboy personality, to help Gotham City recover from the flood that The Riddler caused in the previous movie. Ferris Boyle would be one of the head leaders for Gotham's rebuilding, even after the flood being frozen solid. However, it's another lie and secretly, Boyle is secretly taking money supposed to rebuild Gotham into his own bank account.
We have an opening action sequence of Batman fighting Killer-Croc, in the flooded waters of Gotham City, in the sewers. It's very similar to Bruce's fight with Killer Croc in Arkham Origins video game, where Batman uses his electrical gauntlets to wail on Croc, knocking him out and Bruce leaves Killer Croc for the cops.
After that, we see Batman as Bruce Wayne attending a charity event for Gotham's reconstruction, after the flood. It's led by Ferris Boyle. However, the door is busted down, thugs begin aiming their guns and an armored figure with glowing red eyes slowly walks towards Boyle, as Mister Freeze is introduced and he attacks The Charity Event, and tries to get the diamonds in the area and kidnap Boyle. He begins freezing people with his Freeze-Gun.
Taking advantage of the chaos, Bruce disappears into the panicked crowd and suits up as Batman, and he jumps out and kicks Mister Freeze, directly in his glass dome, cracking it. Due to his limited mobility in his armor, Freeze struggles against Batman, as Bruce continues landing several blows on him. However, Freeze gets Batman off of him and freezes Batman's feet to the floor with his Freeze-Rifle.
Mister Freeze steals the diamond and kidnaps Boyle. Victor takes Boyle to his hideout where he freezes his body. Boyle had caused his body to turn a bluish blue and for him to feel like he's constantly burning and his only comfort is his suit which cools him down. We now cut to Gordon and Batman investigating the crime scene.
Mister Freeze is using the diamonds to power his armor to find a cure for Nora who is permanently frozen. We have a similar scene to the animated series to show Freeze's lack of empathy and cold demeanor towards his goons.
Freeze has also been targeting executives of Ferris Boyle. Which leads to an action sequence in the frozen waters in Gotham City, where Freeze is surrounded by the executives, who all carry assault rifles. Mister Freeze kills them all by smashing the ice and freezing them underneath the frozen water, causing them to drown.
Finally, Batman figures out who Victor Fries is, through some research on The Batcomputer and which bank he's gonna rob next and chases after him with The Batmobile. However, Mister Freeze freezes the vehicle causing Batman to lose him.
Act-2: After his loss to Mister Freeze, Batman goes to The Iceberg Lounge to get some answers and information on Freeze but instead of getting met by The Penguin, it's two super strong thugs who are Tweedledee and Tweedledum.
Batman fights the duo, but he gets overpowered and just when Batman is cornered and about to be beaten to death, Catwoman jumps behind Tweedledum and kicks him in the head and says playfully to Batman,
"I figured you'd be here".
Together, Bruce and Selena knock out both Tweedledee and Tweedledum in a bloody fist fight. After dealing with those two, Bruce and Selina get to Penguin, who does actually have information this time as he is doing a weapons deal with Freeze where he'll trade for this new freeze tech.
Batman attacks The Freeze Thugs, alongside Catwoman. These thugs have less advanced versions of Freeze's gun and interrogate one and figuring out Freeze's hideout and his motivation for his crimes. After they are subdued, Batman and Catwoman go to Mister Freeze's hideout taking out his goons stealthily and finding Freeze looking at his wife in the tube.
Batman sympathizes with Freeze and tries to convince him that he'll help Freeze with his wife and that he doesn't need to steal diamonds and shatter Boyle, who has been frozen all this time. Freeze doesn't care and doesn't trust Batman because Boyle lied to him in a similar way. They battle for a while, with Freeze having an upgraded version of his armor for better mobility.
Mister Freeze catches one of Batman's kicks and throws him aside into one of his ice structures, shattering it to pieces.
As Batman is in a fist fight with Freeze, Bruce begins to freeze up, because his main suit is not built for this low temperature environment, as Mister Freeze pulverizes Batman with a fury of punches, which breaks his cowl.
Catwoman tries to slice into Freeze's armor with her claws, but Freeze shoots her in the neck, causing Selena to suffocate.
(As for the effects of The Freeze-Rifle, The freezing itself doesn't actually kill you but it's the hypothermia that ensues that does it)
Batman breaks the ice and stealthily retreats with a wounded and suffocating Catwoman, back to The Batcave.
Act-3: After this, Batman quickly gets out of his armor and shatters the ice around Selina's neck. During Catwoman's recovery, Bruce reveals his identity to her and the two make out and get into an official relationship. Bruce and Selina come up with a plan to stop Freeze and find some way to cure his wife. His original suit is too damaged and they don't have time to repair it, as Freeze plans to storm GothCorp and steal all their latest technologies to help Nora.
Lucius Fox and his son, Luke, create Batman's new extreme environment suit created to stop Freeze specifically. The Extreme Environment Suit is armed with Thermo Charged Batarangs. Batman with his new XE suit will find Freeze and they battle.
All of Freeze's blasts from his Freeze-Rifle do nothing as they melt quickly on Batman's XE suit.
Batman bombards Mister Freeze with explosives and blasts from his Thermo Charged Batarangs, which ends up weakening Mister Freeze.
Batman punches Freeze across the room.
Catwoman fights off Freeze's thugs. It's a similar action sequence to Black Widow's hallway fight with Whiplash's thugs in Iron Man 2.
Batman reasons with Mister Freeze, to turn himself in for the sake of his wife, Nora, and Victor agrees and surrenders to The GCPD. Mister Freeze is put away in Arkham Asylum, in an extremely cold cell. The movie ends with Wayne Enterprises announcing that they are working on a cure for cancer, and they are almost there, as Victor cries with happiness, as the film ends on a hopeful note.
Post Credit Scenes: - We see a dark haired woman, looking at photos of Batman and Superman's past sightings and footage of their battles with past supervillains, including Batman's final battle with Mister Freeze.
She says "The Silver Age of Heroes is happening, huh." As we zoom in on her amazonian armor, tiara, and lasso, hung up in her penthouse. As we hear the Hanns Zimmer Wonder Woman Theme quietly plays in the background, as it cuts to black…
(Yep, it's a small glimpse at Wonder Woman)

• Tweedledee and Tweedledum are in the streets of Gotham, and they are suddenly hypnotized by a mysterious man. That will set up Mad Hatter for a future Batman film.

First off, I'm actually a cat person. I've known cats all my life and understanding them is like second nature. We have three cats and since 2 months also a dog. We mainly got him for my boyfriend. I also got him with the idea that my boyfriend will guide me through this since I have never owned a dog. I have some experience with one dog (He was my sister's dog), but that was a very well trained Bernese. Our dog is a 10 month old American Pocket Bully. Not a breed I prefer but he was looking for a home and my boyfriend likes him.
I do my best with this dog. I really do. We evenly split walking him and we play with him a lot. I don't know a whole lot about training dogs but from what I know, I try to teach him. He doesn't learn anything. He doesn't remember what he has learned. I'm not an expert on dogs at all but he doesn't seem like a very smart dog to me. He only knows 'sit' when he's on our carpet. Off our carpet he doesn't listen to the command. I taught him stay, but the next day, he already forgot. He also keeps pissing and shitting inside and this drives me up the wall. I understand when he can't hold it in, but we walk with him every three hours. Only when we're at work we aren't able to do so so I understand if he pisses inside at those times. But he also does when I just went outside with him. I could've been outside for 15 minutes (before work, for example), come inside and he still pisses and shits inside. I hate this. My dog can't be this stupid, right? My boyfriend also doesn't put as much time in training as I do, he only plays with him. I often ask my boyfriend to explain me this behavior and other behavior I just don't understand. My boyfriend does his best to support me, but sometimes he is of no help.
I also didn't realize how needy dogs can be and this is such a big change for me here in the house. My cats are very independent and occasionally come ask for something but our dog is so needy. He gets a lot of attention, mostly from my boyfriend but I take my time to play with him as well. But then he wants to come between me and my boyfriend when we cuddle, which we don't do that often. He can't just stay down and wait 'till it's his turn. He keeps jumping up wanting attention, even after getting plenty already. It really makes me dislike him because he's such an attention seeker.
He chases our cats as well. We try to train him not to do so but he just forgets every lesson we teach him. It's always like we're back at square one with this dog. Doesn't respect our cats' space and is constantly up in their face, jumping and being too enthusiastic. My cats also have the right to be at peace here at home.
I love our dog. I love all our pets. But sometimes I don't like our dog. What do I do, I feel so bad about this too. I never would've thought that I would have such a hard time adjusting to a dog. I want to but I don't know how and I know my boyfriend does his best, but he doesn't always help either... What do I do? How do I get through this? Some info, I have ADHD and am autistic so change is very difficult for me and I process certain things differently. I thought this bit of information is relevant so...
Thanks for reading my rant.

This is a repost of my post in lookismcomic.
Here are some ground rules to set

1. Only the strongest forms of characters will be considered in this list (eg- Ultra instinct Daniel and not base version Daniel)
   
2. The strength of the characters will only be counted to what we have seen until chapter 442 and not potential to be stronger in the future or else Jake Kim would be an easy number 1.
   

Keep in mind this is going to be a long post which will need to be updated after zack's, vasco's and Jay's strength will be seen at our fullest extent.
Let's begin

1. Original Daniel Park

We always knew of him to be a fat kid who got bullied and mistreated by others his entire life. However after losing weight by systema training by the war hero Alexander Sophia and formal fighting training by the shiro oni Yamazaki Gun Park the disciple of Tom Lee the fighting genius of Charles Choi himself, he is bloomed into becoming a monster in his own right. Firstly he has the ability to copy fighting moves by just a glance which is so hax that it basically renders any talent or mastery the opponent has for a certain fighting style useless. Till now only 5 people have been shown to have this ability first he original Daniel himself, then perfect body Daniel, then Johan Seong, then Jinyoung Park and lastly the unnamed person who defeated the world Muay Thai champion Brekdak using this ability. Now lets talk about feats, in his first fight, one of the workers strongest fighters Xiaolung admitted that Daniel is now a monster and he defeated Xiaolung very easily, remember this guy is so strong that Jake himself had to go all out to defeat him, he was also able to fight Yoosung who was judged at the Level of a first generation King by eugene, the smartest guy in the series and was aknowledged by gun to be a worthy opponent. Moreover he is a different beast in ultra instinct, he is able to go toe to toe with one of the stronger first generaion kings going all out and could potentiality be stronger than him which is a very big feat as no one in the second gen has subdued even the weaker first generation kings by themselves.

1. Perfect body Daniel Park

He is the person who has the most perfect body for fighting according to the medical genius of Charles Choi, Jinyoung Park. He also possesses the copying ability but according to me his ability of copying is actualy the best compared to all as his body has mastered all the fighting styles so he can sub-consciously improve those moves. Moreover his fighting prowess has been aknowledged by gun himself as all his moves are perfect. However since he has not honed his body himself and all of it is given to him he can't use it to its full extent leading to his base form fighting ability to not be very impressive comparing to the 4 crews so ya'll must be thinking, 'why is he even number 2?' Well it's because of a form only he and his other body can attain- ultra instinct. This form of his is so good that it made mortal enemies Jake Kim and Samuel Seo fight together to defeat him because they know how dangerous he is, he is the man who made SAMUEL SEO feel fear, the reason why it's crazy is because the reason Samuel didn't get aknowledged by gun even though he defeated all the 4 major crew heads is because he is too vicious, someone like him felt fear due to the mere presence of this man, he is so good that he made Charles Choi's fighting genius Tom Lee's student Goo who is on the same level as gun and stronger than all first generation kings go all out with his best weapon to defeat him, he is so good that when ge regained consciousness from fighting gun, he was in a favorable position and he actually broke gun's arm which is something no crew head has even come close to achieving.

1. Johan Seong

He is also one of the users who weild the copying ability and is regarded as one of the strongest fighters by many people in the entire series including the white tiger job center, he has gone toe to toe with Tom Lee, and is acknowledged by gun to be strongest crew head, infact he is so strong that he makes an entire crew God Dog by himself which is part of the 4 major crews. The fact that he makes an entire crew by himself is just astounding. Next in terms of feats, his strength is also aknowledged by gun and goo too, moreover in the 4 crew heads free for all, even though he lost first, gun and goo themselves stated that in 3 years (right now) johan will surpass all the crew heads. Moreover in the 4 crew heads meetup 3 years later with the strongest executives of workers and Eli Jang after training from Tom Lee , he was told to be the strongest in the room. Moreover in his rage form which his not even his strongest form he one shotted vasco and another guy on vasco's level. However his strongest form is when he copies perfect body ultra instinct Daniel, the beast mentioned above. With that he can copy him for a short time, but he is so strong that in that limited time he manged to defeat Yoosung, Eugene's twin brother who was rated to be in the level of or even stronger than a first gen king. Moreover Johan has the ability to improve during the fight due to copying the opponents moves, also he has now learnt cqc the most dangerous move of senior manager kim which is even feared by Tom Lee.

1. Yoosung The person we were just talking about, keep in mind this is going to be a much shorter deception Than the others since he hasn't fought all that much compared to the others. He is an extremely powerful and swift person despite his small body, his physical attributes have also been aknowledged by Tom Lee himself and even gun. And as also told above, he is judged to be on the level of or better than a first gen king.
   
2. Sinu Han
   Lastly, here we are at the end of the list which took 5 rereads of the last 140 chapters or so and 2 weeks of procrastination.
   

Let's begin, Sinu Han or the god of combat, or the protector of big deal street or the boy of promise. He is a man of many titles. He is one of only 3 people who have the ability of attacking so fast that their opponent can't even see their attacks. To be honest, if this were a list of strongest base form then he will be in the top 3 but since he does not have any other forms like a crazed form where the persons heart feels warm or an ultra instinct form, he is not higher on this list. He is so strong that gun acknowledged him to be the strongest crew head in gangseo, keep in mind that back then sinu wasn't at his strongest form. Currently he is so strong that he surpasses first generation kings which was said by I think Seokdu Wang or Taesoo Ma, I don't remmeber properly. He has fought many people in workers second affiliate to surpass all levels and reach this stage. When he is angry, he managed to defeat all big deal executives and workers executives with ease. So far only Jake has been able to see his attacks that is also all because of his no genes. Right now also, he alone is able to take on both Eli Jang and Warren Chae both at their strongest.
Characters who barely missed the list- Eli Jang and Warren Chae
Characters too strong for the list- Doo Lee and Yenma

I've been doing series of mistakes since few months.I choose the wrong major in my bachelors,I choose the wrong roommate to stay with and I even fought with my parents to stay with him and lateron I cam to realize that he has no life goals,ambitions staying with him will make me more lazier as well.I have literally nobody to talk with ,I have 0 female interaction.After my breakup I've lost the courage,I dont want to be in a relationship all the courage for being in a relationship have died.Sometime I want to be surrounded by people and in a matter of second I dont like them I behave like they are the worst people to exist.What is happening with me I've no clue.I want ot get rid of everything.Fuckkkk

Here are some ground rules to set

1. Only the strongest forms of characters will be considered in this list (eg- Ultra instinct Daniel and not base version Daniel)
   
2. The strength of the characters will only be counted to what we have seen until chapter 442 and not potential to be stronger in the future or else Jake Kim would be an easy number 1.
   

Keep in mind this is going to be a long post which will need to be updated after zack's, vasco's and Jay's strength will be seen at our fullest extent.
Let's begin

1. Original Daniel Park

We always knew of him to be a fat kid who got bullied and mistreated by others his entire life. However after losing weight by systema training by the war hero Alexander Sophia and formal fighting training by the shiro oni Yamazaki Gun Park the disciple of Tom Lee the fighting genius of Charles Choi himself, he is bloomed into becoming a monster in his own right. Firstly he has the ability to copy fighting moves by just a glance which is so hax that it basically renders any talent or mastery the opponent has for a certain fighting style useless. Till now only 5 people have been shown to have this ability first he original Daniel himself, then perfect body Daniel, then Johan Seong, then Jinyoung Park and lastly the unnamed person who defeated the world Muay Thai champion Brekdak using this ability. Now lets talk about feats, in his first fight, one of the workers strongest fighters Xiaolung admitted that Daniel is now a monster and he defeated Xiaolung very easily, remember this guy is so strong that Jake himself had to go all out to defeat him, he was also able to fight Yoosung who was judged at the Level of a first generation King by eugene, the smartest guy in the series and was aknowledged by gun to be a worthy opponent. Moreover he is a different beast in ultra instinct, he is able to go toe to toe with one of the stronger first generaion kings going all out and could potentiality be stronger than him which is a very big feat as no one in the second gen has subdued even the weaker first generation kings by themselves.

1. Perfect body Daniel Park

He is the person who has the most perfect body for fighting according to the medical genius of Charles Choi, Jinyoung Park. He also possesses the copying ability but according to me his ability of copying is actualy the best compared to all as his body has mastered all the fighting styles so he can sub-consciously improve those moves. Moreover his fighting prowess has been aknowledged by gun himself as all his moves are perfect. However since he has not honed his body himself and all of it is given to him he can't use it to its full extent leading to his base form fighting ability to not be very impressive comparing to the 4 crews so ya'll must be thinking, 'why is he even number 2?' Well it's because of a form only he and his other body can attain- ultra instinct. This form of his is so good that it made mortal enemies Jake Kim and Samuel Seo fight together to defeat him because they know how dangerous he is, he is the man who made SAMUEL SEO feel fear, the reason why it's crazy is because the reason Samuel didn't get aknowledged by gun even though he defeated all the 4 major crew heads is because he is too vicious, someone like him felt fear due to the mere presence of this man, he is so good that he made Charles Choi's fighting genius Tom Lee's student Goo who is on the same level as gun and stronger than all first generation kings go all out with his best weapon to defeat him, he is so good that when ge regained consciousness from fighting gun, he was in a favorable position and he actually broke gun's arm which is something no crew head has even come close to achieving.

1. Johan Seong

He is also one of the users who weild the copying ability and is regarded as one of the strongest fighters by many people in the entire series including the white tiger job center, he has gone toe to toe with Tom Lee, and is acknowledged by gun to be strongest crew head, infact he is so strong that he makes an entire crew God Dog by himself which is part of the 4 major crews. The fact that he makes an entire crew by himself is just astounding. Next in terms of feats, his strength is also aknowledged by gun and goo too, moreover in the 4 crew heads free for all, even though he lost first, gun and goo themselves stated that in 3 years (right now) johan will surpass all the crew heads. Moreover in the 4 crew heads meetup 3 years later with the strongest executives of workers and Eli Jang after training from Tom Lee , he was told to be the strongest in the room. Moreover in his rage form which his not even his strongest form he one shotted vasco and another guy on vasco's level. However his strongest form is when he copies perfect body ultra instinct Daniel, the beast mentioned above. With that he can copy him for a short time, but he is so strong that in that limited time he manged to defeat Yoosung, Eugene's twin brother who was rated to be in the level of or even stronger than a first gen king. Moreover Johan has the ability to improve during the fight due to copying the opponents moves, also he has now learnt cqc the most dangerous move of senior manager kim which is even feared by Tom Lee.

1. Yoosung The person we were just talking about, keep in mind this is going to be a much shorter description Than the others since he hasn't fought all that much compared to the others. He is an extremely powerful and swift person despite his small body, his physical attributes have also been aknowledged by Tom Lee himself and even gun. And as also told above, he is judged to be on the level of or better than a first gen king.
   
2. Sinu Han
   Lastly, here we are at the end of the list which took 5 rereads of the last 140 chapters or so and 2 weeks of procrastination.
   

Let's begin, Sinu Han or the god of combat, or the protector of big deal street or the boy of promise. He is a man of many titles. He is one of only 3 people who have the ability of attacking so fast that their opponent can't even see their attacks. To be honest, if this were a list of strongest base form then he will be in the top 3 but since he does not have any other forms like a crazed form where the persons heart feels warm or an ultra instinct form, he is not higher on this list. He is so strong that gun acknowledged him to be the strongest crew head in gangseo, keep in mind that back then sinu wasn't at his strongest form. Currently he is so strong that he surpasses first generation kings which was said by I think Seokdu Wang or Taesoo Ma, I don't remmeber properly. He has fought many people in workers second affiliate to surpass all levels and reach this stage. When he is angry, he managed to defeat all big deal executives and workers executives with ease. So far only Jake has been able to see his attacks that is also all because of his no genes. Right now also, he alone is able to take on both Eli Jang and Warren Chae both at their strongest.
Characters who barely missed the list- Eli Jang and Warren Chae
Characters too strong for the list- Doo Lee and Yenna
Suggestions are appreciated

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My analysis of The Confessions of Frannie Langton (4-part series show edition).
MASSIVE SPOILER ALERT!!!
I'll discuss the following topics: how it could be avoided, hyperrealism, same-sex relationships failing to work out in scripted TV shows, symbolism, and how it affected me.
For anyone who has seen The Confessions of Frannie Langton, I would like your input on this.
I won't explain a backstory to the show, but I'd recommend checking it out for those who have yet to see it.
It's available on BritBox. There are four episodes, around 50 minutes each.
I will briefly explain how the death of Madame Marguerite Benham and Frannie Langton could've been avoided or attempted to be avoided. I'm also assuming that everyone has a basic/intermediate knowledge of the show and characters, so I won't be going into immense detail, so I can make this relatively short.
How Frannie's execution and Marguerite's death could've (potentially) been avoided:
Frannie falling for Marguerite was a mistake, to begin with. However, you cannot control who you fall for. I just knew it would be a mess from the beginning. I was just defeated that Frannie died due to dealing with the Benhams. To correctly determine if/how Frannie's execution could've been avoided, I must figure out when Marguerite committed suicide. Was it after Frannie killed George Benham? Marguerite was asleep during that time/alone in the bedroom. Regardless of either, I am going to backtrack. Sal, the brothel owner, welcomes Frannie and provides her with a home there after the Benhams kick Frannie out of their house after discovering the affair. If we stop it right here, this is where Frannie could have thrived if she had stayed with Sal.
The white individuals around her respected Sal, who was well off financially and intelligent. The entire mess could've been completely avoided if Frannie hadn't returned to the Benhams (where she never had to be from the film's start). But obviously, characters always seem to do the dumbest things, and viewers/readers know what's ahead of them. In episode 4, around the timestamp 17:38, Frannie talks to Marguerite and states, "Come with me, please." Marguerite replies angrily, ".... how do you think the two of us would do happily in a little cottage by the sea." I don't believe Frannie initially wanted the two to live together. I think, at this moment, the two could've and should've left to live with Sal at her brothel. Even though it wouldn't have been ideal, both deaths could've been avoided.
Disregarding this, I believe the reason Marguartte decided from suicide was also because of her husband's pressure about being unable to conceive children. At the film's beginning, Marguerite makes it aware that she miscarried twice. We do know that she miscarried a third time after becoming pregnant by Laddie, which would prove that she cheated on her husband and that she cheated with a black man. Even though black individuals were free under British law in 1825, it was still difficult to be black and shameful. Let alone a white person of nobility and high statutes becoming impregnated by a black man, despite Laddie being of high standards and respected by his white counterparts, both would still be shamed. Therefore, the pressures form on Marguerite from the revealed same-sex affair, which was shamed, inability to produce children which were humiliated, and becoming impregnated by a black man, probably the most shameful of them all during that time, caused Marguerite to end her life. Although, that was not necessary. Marguerite had another miscarriage after the affair with Laddie, eliminating one problem. Anyways, they should've moved in with Sal, but alas. Despite Marguerite becoming pregnant in Frannie's absence, Frannie is crushed, but it's clear that she still wants a future with Marguerite and is willing to move forward from this, but Marguerite cannot seem to grasp this. Not to mention, that Marguerite is addicted to Laudanum, and gets Frannie addicted too, which negatively impacts both character's decision-making and judgment skills.
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Moving forward to the trial, which I don't want to spend much time on, the family placed stabbed wounds on Marguerite to cover up the suicide, which would be incredibly shameful to a white family of high nobility. Unlike in today's time, where we realize how sad suicide is and use it as a talking point of discussion, in 1825, this was the complete opposite. Moving forward, Frannie was already in opposition. Being a black person in 1825 England, being accused of practically anything by a white jury and white accusers meant that you would most likely lose 99% of the time, ignoring the fact if you were telling the truth or not the execution was inevitable. so I don't want to be the person who says, "well, technically, the jury could've believed the evidence her lawyer brought forth." A doctor was supposed to testify on Frannie's behalf, stating that Marguerite died from laudanum and was not stabbed by Frannie, but he didn't show up. Even in this case, while the judge might've been inclined to believe her, if he was to side with a black individual, he could be lost his occupation. Therefore, he was to place a facade on a fair trial regardless of the proof and evidence brought forward. Thus, once Frannie killed George, she transitioned to "the point of no return." Even if she fled Benham's house after doing so, she still would've been framed. However, I hoped she wouldn't have reached that "point of no return moment" which she could have avoided by staying with Sal or not killing George Benham. She let her emotions get to her, which is understandable. Benham was an asshole, so who cares if his character was dead? But that's not the point. That time when she was arguing with Benham could've been when she comforted Marguerite. Although Marguerite committing suicide was her decision, and there's nothing she could've Frannie could've done, so there's a possibility that it could've been prevented, but we cannot be sure. Therefore, staying with Sal would've guaranteed a 100% assurance percentage that Sal would not have been put on trial. Not killing Benham and staying with Marguerite would ensure a 50% assurance. Conclusion: Frannie should've stayed with Sal.
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Hyperrealism:
Although I wish the show and novel had a happy ending, and I so desperately wanted Frannie and Marguerite's relationship to work out, I knew it wouldn't. The novel's author (Sara Collins) did a FANTASTIC job of writing it and creating hyperrealism for the show's producers to follow. Therefore, everything would play out similarly to the show in real life. It would've ended the same, if not worse. So we must not ignore reality. But trust me, and I did want a happy ending.
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The nature of unsuccessful same-sex relationships in movies and TV:
Hate to be the one to say it, but I've noticed lesbian relationships seem to never work out in scripted TV shows. The characters can never seem to "get it together," or their environment, as portrayed in The Confessions of Frannie Langton, is against them, putting them at odds.
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Symbolism:
The story warns us not to let our hearts impact our knowledge and not to get ahead of ourselves by thinking about the "what ifs." Frannie ignored her logic. She was very well-spoken and well-written, and she knew the potential negative impacts of pursuing a forbidden love with Marguerite. Still, she chose to ignore them until it was too late.
However, there are other areas I want to touch on. First, I want to reference timestamp 48:14 of episode 4 when Frannie utters, "I'm afraid," and looks to her left to see Marguerite sitting on her prison bed, smiling at her, and Frannie smiles back. This happens again at timestamp 48:58 when Frannie looks back at her bed as she's being walked out of her cell to be executed and sees Marguerite again sitting on her bed.
There are a few ways I'm interpreting this. (1)-Either Frannie is so nervous about her execution that she's starting to hallucinate, which is called "Anxiety Hallucinations," the more likely option. (2)-The following possible reason for Frannie seeing Marguerite after saying, "I'm afraid," represents us thinking about an individual who brings comfort. Sometimes, I ask, "what would XYZ do in this situation" to comfort myself in adversity. Or, I'll think about them for comfort. With that being said, Frannie seeing Marguerite could mean that Frannie was thinking of her, and the directors needed a way to portray that. (3)-The third possible option is that Marguerite was there in spirit form and presented herself to Frannie. Regardless of whether spirituality is a current force in your life, you cannot indeed denote the fact that the writers might've been trying to help us viewers realize that Marguerite was there and allowed herself to be seen by Frannie since Frannie said, "I'm afraid," and that was her way of comforting Frannie, and saying "I'll see you soon, in the afterlife" without saying it deliberately. This is a likely option because, at the first timestamp, 48:14, Marguerite has light shining on her from the window. In many religions and spiritualities, light often represents the presence of a spirit or force; therefore, that could be what the writers intended.
I also believe that Sal and Laddie illustrate what Frannie could've been if she had taken the reigns of her own life. They were wealthy and well-off independent blacks, respected and heard by whites which weren't typical of 1825 England. They represented who Frannie could've strove to be but decided against it by staying in her comfort zone (Pursuing love with her mistress). Therefore, this novel and show are trying to communicate that we should always strive for excellence, regardless of our circumstances, and that our beginnings never determine the end.
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How this show affected me:
Man... saying I love this show is an understatement. It's completely taken over my mind, and I cannot get over it. I wish there were ten episodes of four. I've watched it twice now. The final scene I referenced in my previous paragraph, where Frannie was in her prison cell, made me tear up the first time I watched it and almost entirely cry the second time, which is incredibly rare. I wanted them to work out soooo severely. Frannie made so many sacrifices for Marguerite, and Marguerite made so many sacrifices for Frannie. It's clear George Benham didn't truly love Marguerite and only wanted her so that he'd be able to have children, which was a status quote. I see myself in the storyline. I understand forbidden love and operating in a world full of unacceptance and trying to figure out ways to find acceptance and a place to fit in. This show made me wonder how many handmaidens in this time fell in love with their mistress, either kept it a secret or carried out a secret relationship that ended badly. This reflects reality during that time, and I hate that real people experienced events like this. Frannie went through such a hard time, and I hate that her efforts were thrown in the garbage, all because she decided to pursue love with a woman who didn't truly understand her. She went through all of that for nothing.
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I've attached a few links to read in case you need help understanding certain characters or the storyline completely.
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FANTASTIC SHOW! 10/10
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Thank you so much for reading, and I would love to read your responses and opinions to what I've typed and the show and novel in general.
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Thank you.

My analysis of The Confessions of Frannie Langton (4-part series show edition).
MASSIVE SPOILER ALERT!!!
I'll discuss the following topics: how it could be avoided, hyperrealism, same-sex relationships failing to work out in scripted TV shows, symbolism, and how it affected me.
For anyone who has seen The Confessions of Frannie Langton, I would like your input on this.
I won't explain a backstory to the show, but I'd recommend checking it out for those who have yet to see it.
It's available on BritBox. There are four episodes, around 50 minutes each.
I will briefly explain how the death of Madame Marguerite Benham and Frannie Langton could've been avoided or attempted to be avoided. I'm also assuming that everyone has a basic/intermediate knowledge of the show and characters, so I won't be going into immense detail, so I can make this relatively short.
How Frannie's execution and Marguerite's death could've (potentially) been avoided:
Frannie falling for Marguerite was a mistake, to begin with. However, you cannot control who you fall for. I just knew it would be a mess from the beginning. I was just defeated that Frannie died due to dealing with the Benhams. To correctly determine if/how Frannie's execution could've been avoided, I must figure out when Marguerite committed suicide. Was it after Frannie killed George Benham? Marguerite was asleep during that time/alone in the bedroom. Regardless of either, I am going to backtrack. Sal, the brothel owner, welcomes Frannie and provides her with a home there after the Benhams kick Frannie out of their house after discovering the affair. If we stop it right here, this is where Frannie could have thrived if she had stayed with Sal.
The white individuals around her respected Sal, who was well off financially and intelligent. The entire mess could've been completely avoided if Frannie hadn't returned to the Benhams (where she never had to be from the film's start). But obviously, characters always seem to do the dumbest things, and viewers/readers know what's ahead of them. In episode 4, around the timestamp 17:38, Frannie talks to Marguerite and states, "Come with me, please." Marguerite replies angrily, ".... how do you think the two of us would do happily in a little cottage by the sea." I don't believe Frannie initially wanted the two to live together. I think, at this moment, the two could've and should've left to live with Sal at her brothel. Even though it wouldn't have been ideal, both deaths could've been avoided.
Disregarding this, I believe the reason Marguartte decided from suicide was also because of her husband's pressure about being unable to conceive children. At the film's beginning, Marguerite makes it aware that she miscarried twice. We do know that she miscarried a third time after becoming pregnant by Laddie, which would prove that she cheated on her husband and that she cheated with a black man. Even though black individuals were free under British law in 1825, it was still difficult to be black and shameful. Let alone a white person of nobility and high statutes becoming impregnated by a black man, despite Laddie being of high standards and respected by his white counterparts, both would still be shamed. Therefore, the pressures form on Marguerite from the revealed same-sex affair, which was shamed, inability to produce children which were humiliated, and becoming impregnated by a black man, probably the most shameful of them all during that time, caused Marguerite to end her life. Although, that was not necessary. Marguerite had another miscarriage after the affair with Laddie, eliminating one problem. Anyways, they should've moved in with Sal, but alas. Despite Marguerite becoming pregnant in Frannie's absence, Frannie is crushed, but it's clear that she still wants a future with Marguerite and is willing to move forward from this, but Marguerite cannot seem to grasp this. Not to mention, that Marguerite is addicted to Laudanum, and gets Frannie addicted too, which negatively impacts both character's decision-making and judgment skills.
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Moving forward to the trial, which I don't want to spend much time on, the family placed stabbed wounds on Marguerite to cover up the suicide, which would be incredibly shameful to a white family of high nobility. Unlike in today's time, where we realize how sad suicide is and use it as a talking point of discussion, in 1825, this was the complete opposite. Moving forward, Frannie was already in opposition. Being a black person in 1825 England, being accused of practically anything by a white jury and white accusers meant that you would most likely lose 99% of the time, ignoring the fact if you were telling the truth or not the execution was inevitable. so I don't want to be the person who says, "well, technically, the jury could've believed the evidence her lawyer brought forth." A doctor was supposed to testify on Frannie's behalf, stating that Marguerite died from laudanum and was not stabbed by Frannie, but he didn't show up. Even in this case, while the judge might've been inclined to believe her, if he was to side with a black individual, he could be lost his occupation. Therefore, he was to place a facade on a fair trial regardless of the proof and evidence brought forward. Thus, once Frannie killed George, she transitioned to "the point of no return." Even if she fled Benham's house after doing so, she still would've been framed. However, I hoped she wouldn't have reached that "point of no return moment" which she could have avoided by staying with Sal or not killing George Benham. She let her emotions get to her, which is understandable. Benham was an asshole, so who cares if his character was dead? But that's not the point. That time when she was arguing with Benham could've been when she comforted Marguerite. Although Marguerite committing suicide was her decision, and there's nothing she could've Frannie could've done, so there's a possibility that it could've been prevented, but we cannot be sure. Therefore, staying with Sal would've guaranteed a 100% assurance percentage that Sal would not have been put on trial. Not killing Benham and staying with Marguerite would ensure a 50% assurance. Conclusion: Frannie should've stayed with Sal.
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Hyperrealism:
Although I wish the show and novel had a happy ending, and I so desperately wanted Frannie and Marguerite's relationship to work out, I knew it wouldn't. The novel's author (Sara Collins) did a FANTASTIC job of writing it and creating hyperrealism for the show's producers to follow. Therefore, everything would play out similarly to the show in real life. It would've ended the same, if not worse. So we must not ignore reality. But trust me, and I did want a happy ending.
​
The nature of unsuccessful same-sex relationships in movies and TV:
Hate to be the one to say it, but I've noticed lesbian relationships seem to never work out in scripted TV shows. The characters can never seem to "get it together," or their environment, as portrayed in The Confessions of Frannie Langton, is against them, putting them at odds.
​
Symbolism:
The story warns us not to let our hearts impact our knowledge and not to get ahead of ourselves by thinking about the "what ifs." Frannie ignored her logic. She was very well-spoken and well-written, and she knew the potential negative impacts of pursuing a forbidden love with Marguerite. Still, she chose to ignore them until it was too late.
However, there are other areas I want to touch on. First, I want to reference timestamp 48:14 of episode 4 when Frannie utters, "I'm afraid," and looks to her left to see Marguerite sitting on her prison bed, smiling at her, and Frannie smiles back. This happens again at timestamp 48:58 when Frannie looks back at her bed as she's being walked out of her cell to be executed and sees Marguerite again sitting on her bed.
There are a few ways I'm interpreting this. (1)-Either Frannie is so nervous about her execution that she's starting to hallucinate, which is called "Anxiety Hallucinations," the more likely option. (2)-The following possible reason for Frannie seeing Marguerite after saying, "I'm afraid," represents us thinking about an individual who brings comfort. Sometimes, I ask, "what would XYZ do in this situation" to comfort myself in adversity. Or, I'll think about them for comfort. With that being said, Frannie seeing Marguerite could mean that Frannie was thinking of her, and the directors needed a way to portray that. (3)-The third possible option is that Marguerite was there in spirit form and presented herself to Frannie. Regardless of whether spirituality is a current force in your life, you cannot indeed denote the fact that the writers might've been trying to help us viewers realize that Marguerite was there and allowed herself to be seen by Frannie since Frannie said, "I'm afraid," and that was her way of comforting Frannie, and saying "I'll see you soon, in the afterlife" without saying it deliberately. This is a likely option because, at the first timestamp, 48:14, Marguerite has light shining on her from the window. In many religions and spiritualities, light often represents the presence of a spirit or force; therefore, that could be what the writers intended.
I also believe that Sal and Laddie illustrate what Frannie could've been if she had taken the reigns of her own life. They were wealthy and well-off independent blacks, respected and heard by whites which weren't typical of 1825 England. They represented who Frannie could've strove to be but decided against it by staying in her comfort zone (Pursuing love with her mistress). Therefore, this novel and show are trying to communicate that we should always strive for excellence, regardless of our circumstances, and that our beginnings never determine the end.
​
How this show affected me:
Man... saying I love this show is an understatement. It's completely taken over my mind, and I cannot get over it. I wish there were ten episodes of four. I've watched it twice now. The final scene I referenced in my previous paragraph, where Frannie was in her prison cell, made me tear up the first time I watched it and almost entirely cry the second time, which is incredibly rare. I wanted them to work out soooo severely. Frannie made so many sacrifices for Marguerite, and Marguerite made so many sacrifices for Frannie. It's clear George Benham didn't truly love Marguerite and only wanted her so that he'd be able to have children, which was a status quote. I see myself in the storyline. I understand forbidden love and operating in a world full of unacceptance and trying to figure out ways to find acceptance and a place to fit in. This show made me wonder how many handmaidens in this time fell in love with their mistress, either kept it a secret or carried out a secret relationship that ended badly. This reflects reality during that time, and I hate that real people experienced events like this. Frannie went through such a hard time, and I hate that her efforts were thrown in the garbage, all because she decided to pursue love with a woman who didn't truly understand her. She went through all of that for nothing.
FANTASTIC SHOW! 10/10
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Thank you so much for reading, and I would love to read your responses and opinions to what I've typed and the show and novel in general.
​
Thank you.

Before beginning this whole text of a heckhole, I want to mention: I am aware that I am the bad guy to an extent.
I think I want to start this whole ordeal from the beginning. I (20 F) am a second-year university student, studying an asian language. I was born in the capital city of our country and most of the closest maternal family members live there as well. Due to my paternal family living 2,5 hours away, and my father wanting to help them out, we moved to the countryside where my brother (18) was born.
I remember that around the time my brother was about to be born, I think I felt neglected and there are stories about me getting jelous over stuff with him, which also continued well into our teenager years. That's not particularly important, but I wanted to mention this, because the feeling of jelousy also came from the neglect that I might have gotten from my parents. My father wanted to have kids but he didn't really tend to us physically, nor mentally. I understand that there are people who just can't deal with kids and their world, the way they keep talking etc. Around the time my brother was born, my father went abroad to work there, and continued to come home every weekend. Due to the language barrier, which he continuously tried to close, he didn't have much of a patience. My mother had a very deep depression after my brother was born, which came down to me, a very outspoken little girl being quite annoying. My first trauma might have come from that, and also, my father didn't even try to help my mother get out of depression as far as I'm concerned, only my maternal parents (who moved with us to the countryside) were taking care of her.
Either way, I always felt that my brother got everything he asked for, while I always had to work really hard and even then I was always reprimanded that I have to take care of my brother while our parents are away (me 5-8, my brother 3-6), have to grow up, have responsibility towards my actions. Due to this I always felt like I wasn't really able to understand and get into the fun groups of my peers.
Backing up a bit, we had the old school discipline, slaps sometimes, verbal abuse sometimes, but the main things that I remember are stuff like: I was around 4-7 and wanted to play with my father. He said no multiple times but I really just wanted to connect with him and play. After maybe the 3-6th no, he got really mad and he shouted at me to get out he didn't want to play. Another time was when my mother asked me to give our dog (house with big garden, so dog lived outside) fresh water, but instructed me that the season being winter, I have to get the ice out with warm water and then give the dog a not so cold, nor warm water (maybe?). Either way, I did it the good way, however my father was outside the whole time, when I just finished changing the water he got there, misunderstood the whole situation and slapped me saying "what are you giving to the dog" or something along the line. A couple of seconds later I somehow communicated to him that I did it the right way so...yea.
I wanted to be fun to be with, to make lasting relationships, to be important to others. That's why at the age of 10-13 I got into a group of girls with whom I spent my time, etc, and also on whom I spent money. Foolish, yes, but I was desperate and wanted affection and appreciation. Someday I just realized that those same girls were whispering about me and blatantly looking at me while doing so. I became really sad and mad, which escalated into a shorter period of depression. (I have been going to therapy for another thing in the past 2 years, but recently my psychologist made me do a test about depression, so yes, the result came out pretty high which made me realise that even that event and before that I had some sort of depression, I/we just didn't realise that)
My mother was the first one to notice something was wrong and made my father (with whom I really didn't want to speak) give me a speech about how I should never think of myself as nothing and that I should just study and get better than everyone else. This was in 7th grade. That speech gave me motivation and my grades became much much better, I got into my desired high school, after which came uni. No, that experience of bullying was not in the least good, but without it I wouldn't be here, where I am.
Putting that aside, I wasn't really allowed to go to my classmates' parties etc, but I was almost fine with these during primary school. Getting into high school, I became friends with two groups of girls and I really enjoyed my time there. However my private life, my parents relationship to be precise, got worse. They argued a lot and in 10th grade, one night I was going to shower, my brother was locked up in his room, while our parents were arguing in the kitchen. I was already crying but I suddenly heard a thud, picked up a towel and finally went out to a scene where my mother was sitting, crying, my father standing next to her, one of his hands holding hers, the other one just up in the air as if trying to hit. I shouted to stop, my brother rushed out of his room the same time I did from the bathroom. It took a couple of seconds but my father finally looked at us and I swear I could see a kind of cloud getting out of his eyes. I mean I almost saw the rage cloud... I don't remember what exactly happened after that but that was one of the scariest things I have ever witnessed in real life.
Another major thing before getting into the present is that, (I am a summer child) I was 16, when 5 of us, all girls thought about going to the beach for one day. There's a lake around 1-2 hours away with train, we would have just gone for 6 hours at most. I asked my mom (nail artist) and her client where it would be allright to go, since out of 5 of us, it was only my father who maybe wouldn't have allowed me to go. My mother actually wanted to rush me out and just go, she was so happy haha. So everything was set, now I just had to call my father up and ask him so I did. He said that "I know you are a cool, strong girl, I believe in you but I think we should wait until you are 17" (literally 1,5 month away. I said okay, but later he said no again. I got over it pretty quickly but after about a month my mother told me that he actually called her up how it would be bad, what if I got a boyfriend, got pregnant and ruined my whole career and life, etc. She has been fuming for a while, but after knowing this, I immediately became even more reluctant of wanting to just not talk, interact with my father in any sort of way. Basically not even be near him. Nothing.
Fast forward, it was the week of exams, I got sick, so couldn't attend the math exam, so I had panic attacks wich stayed (and stay) with me for a long time after that. My father basically didn't even care, thought it was nothing, etc. But in the end, I graduated, it was all fine.
I moved to the capital for my studies and finally felt... Alive? Definitely a bit safer and much free than before. Like a dog finally getting out of leash haha
Depression and anxiety have been with me since childhood, but this time it got the best of me so the first semester of uni is the one I'm not very proud of. Didn't attend much of the classes, didn't study, and so on.
Now I'm in my fourth semester, my parents decided on buying an apartment near a bigger train station so that me and 2 other girls could live here. Since it's not yet complete, only I live here, but even though I live near the station, even the university is 30 minutes of transportation away, I do not under any circumstances want to go home. I'm an introvert, to be honest, I don't even have the motivation and energy to go to university sometimes. I do go, and I enjoy it very much, but I feel like I'm a huge failure of a human, can't study, I'm not fun to be with and so on. The exams, the stuff we have to learn and the homeworks are just so much I can barely keep up. Finally I managed to create a fairly good schedule when to do homeworks, relax a bit etc, but all I care about is the university with the homeworks because that's everything I have energy for.
I forget calling my parents, and to be honest, I don't want to talk with them because i feel like if I do, I always get back into the controlled situation. I get nervous, and even with my mother and brother I get very awkward.
To sum it up, I didn't have a normal childhood, always had to take responsibility and my subconscious just wants to live through that phase now. I want to be free, call my relatives when I feel I have enough energy for them and aside from that, just live life. But this "not even having a conversation" situation is why my parents say I'm a brat, unfaithful and so on. Yes, I have been brat like for a long time, that is true.
(Sorry for the long story!!)
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I am numb, I am crushed, I was used, we have a 5 year old son together. I don't understand why she would ruin what we had. I am too exhausted to emotionally grasp what I walked into at 3am.
For context, I'm an airline pilot, I left this morning at 1030am and had a very eventful day, long story short I was supposed to end up in Toronto and ended up being able to go home instead. The last thing I told my gf was that I wasn't able to make it home. (She wasn't expecting me) I wasn't expecting her to be at our apartment since she left before me this morning with our Son and dog to visit her family.
I arrive home at 3am, (16 hours of work) to see her car parked in the lot. I was confused since she was supposed to come home the following day. I was excited to see her and my Son. That is my favorite thing in the world is coming home seeing my gf and son cuddled up sleeping peacefully.
I walk in our apartment, notice our dog wasn't in the kennel. I figured maybe she left him out to sleep in our Sons room so he doesn't bark when I arrive home. I walk over to the bedroom and see my gf sleeping and to my horror I see another man holding his arm around my gf in our bed where I was expecting to see my son.
I cant believe what I'm seeing, Im exhausted and in pure disbelief. I pull out my phone and record with the flashlight. I see all these clothes she bought from Victoria secret from the mall, (she said she was there with girl friends, not) among other stores. I see clothing you would use to role play or just have sex with something nice looking. Part of it was a wig which was weird to me, I looking around more to see a $200 sex toy she was excited to get which she was saying she wanted me to use it on her while I was gone. It was some remote control vibrator thing. I can see the side of her she is in her underwear and a shirt, I look around more to see a used condom on the nightstand.
I grabbed my suitcase and walked back out the door and I'm currently at a friend's house for the night. While they sleep together In my bed. While I make money for our family my gf of 6+ years is cheating on me.
I have given this girl my whole world, my love, loyalty, and care. She is a stay at home mom with no job. I give her this as a choice, to spend more time raising our Son. I provide while she is the caretaker of our home.
A lot of things make sense now looking back, the biggest hint was she was never in the mood to have sex with me. I think she emotionally detached a while ago but has no one to take care of her besides me and the child support she will receive from me now. She would tell me what she would do if we broke up. Very odd to say things like that, I didn't want to believe it but she doesn't love me or respect me anymore. Let alone she doesn't respect herself and most importantly she disrespected our 5 year old Son.
Our Son does not deserve this, It will be very difficult with my career to see him. The worst part is our son and I picked up flowers and chocolate for her yesterday. While she was out with her "friends" she was at this dudes places while I was doing all the chores so she could have a night off. We even bought the new avatar 2 movie to watch together.
I am so fucking lost, I have off tomorrow and want to go to my apartment. I just want to see the girl I thought she was and my Son.

There are some mornings that I have to wake up at 6am to intake a dog to board for the night and then that next morning in need to be up by 7 to give them back. Sometimes it’s a weekend, before work, or before church. I’m usually relatively awake by the time they get to my house, but I usually just run back to bed for another couple hours or until I wake up. I want to stay up, but I don’t know what I could do, I have a husband who is usually still sleeping so I wouldn’t want to wake him. Thoughts?

Rules for the Sterling Void: The Valley of Gods and Monsters
You need a change. You need some excitement. Your life feels like it’s been mis-sold to you. Damaged goods that you’re desperate to return, but sadly, you were born out of warranty. You hate your job. You hate your home. You don’t have any family or friends that you feel you can connect to. Student loans, mortgages, bills overdue. You left your dreams to gather dust and crumble like some ancient artifacts in a museum’s stock room. When did it all go so wrong? Nothing has turned out the way you hoped it would when you were a kid. It’s all just been a series of compounding mistakes. Why did nobody tell you that, after a certain point life just seems to get worse and worse? It’s not that you want to die. No, that isn’t it at all. You want another throw of the dice. You want to start again, at a different place, in a different time. You want to go somewhere where you can begin anew, with a completely clean slate. That’s when you first hear about the Sterling Void: The Valley of Gods and Monsters.
A mysterious valley that was said to be home to powerful gods and terrifying monsters. Despite the warnings of the locals, you just cannot resist the allure of the unknown and decided to seek out the valley. After many days of arduous travel through rugged terrain, you finally find yourself at the entrance to the valley. There, you see a sign with a seemingly otherworldly language that makes you uneasy and a lectern with a blue scroll on top of it, a sense of dread washes over you and, just as you take a step forward, it hits you, literally, a note hits you in the face, it contains a set of petrifying rules, but your curiosity gets the better of you. You take a deep breath and step into the valley, fully unaware of the horrors that await you. As you walk further into the valley, the you begin to notice strange things. The colours of the plants and rocks seem to shift and change, and the sky above you is a deep shade of purple. You hear whispers in your ear, but when you turn around, no one’s there. Suddenly, you feel a tug at your feet and look down to see tendrils of mist wrapping around your ankles, pulling you down.
You tried to fight it, but it’s no use. You are dragged down into the mist, and when you finally emerge, you find yourself in a completely different world. The sky is a shade of silver, and the ground beneath you is made of shimmering white crystals. The air is thick with the scent of burning incense and the sense of unbelievable petrifying dread, and you can hear chanting in the distance. This is the Sterling Void, explorer and the you are now trapped there, but you wanted this and you are to blame. You knew that you had to follow the rules if they wanted to survive in this strange and dangerous place. And so, begins your journey through the Valley of Gods and Monsters, where you might face unimaginable horrors yet discover incredible secrets that may change your life forever.
Take a deep breath, adventurer, and savor the scents of burning incense and warm air. Listen closely to the wyverns chirping, inviting you to join them in eternal flight. But beware the staring imps, giants, ogres and griffins, ready to pounce at any moment. An insolent stare and you’ll be in their grasp, a glob of flesh. Remember the note you found, its warning ringing in your mind: 'Follow the rules or perish.' You shudder at the thought, but you're determined to make it through the Valley alive. You pull out the crumpled note as a reminder and steel yourself for the journey ahead. It reads the following -
Rule #1: Do not look at the gods or monsters, some of them are incomprehensible to humans in their "natural form" and, their mere presence can drive a person insane. Although it's not the case for all of them, it's better to be safe than sorry.
Rule #2: Make as little noise as possible. The gods and monsters can hear even the slightest sound and, if you're too obnoxious or noisy, you might be stripped of your soul.
Rule #3: Do not touch or disturb any objects that appear out of place, as they may be cursed or possessed by malevolent entities. These objects may include ancient artifacts, unusual stones, or unusual markings on the ground. If you encounter such objects, it is best to avoid them altogether and move on. Attempting to interact with them or take them may lead to disastrous consequences, such as being possessed by a vengeful spirit or cursed with a never-ending torment. Always exercise caution and respect for the supernatural forces that inhabit the Sterling Void. The objects in the valley can bring forth unspeakable horrors.
Rule #4: Only eat fruits and vegetables, as they are provided abundantly by the plants. Do not harm any animals unless they attack you first, as they are protected by divine grace. However, if the elementals or gods provide you with meat, you may eat it. It is important to follow the rules of supernatural hospitality and show gratitude for their generosity. Breaking this rule will result in severe consequences and you will forfeit the right to your soul and flesh, as it is a sign of disrespect towards the beings that have granted you protection and shelter. Remember, survival is possible without meat, but it is impossible without the protection of the elementals and gods.
Rule #5: Do not breathe in the mist. The mist in the valley can cause hallucinations and distort your perception of reality, making it dangerous to navigate. Cover your nose and mouth with a cloth if you must pass through it.
Rule #6: Do not touch the water unless it is orange in color. The water in the valley is cursed, and those who drink from it will suffer a fate worse than death. If you must drink, only drink from the "gilded water" that is orange in color and has regenerative properties.
Rule #7: Do not make eye contact with the statues. The statues in the valley are cursed, and those who look into their eyes will be trapped in a never-ending nightmare.
Rule #8: Do not trust your senses entirely. The valley can play tricks on your mind, and what you perceive may not always be real. Always verify your surroundings before making decisions.
Rule #9: Do not speak to anyone or anything that could possibly be a malevolent creature. The valley is home to creatures that can mimic human voices, and their intentions are often malevolent. Be cautious and discerning in your interactions .
Rule #10: Do not attempt to leave the valley without proper preparation. The gods and monsters that reside within the valley will make it difficult to leave.
Rule #11: Try to minimize use of light especially if you're out in the open. The creatures in the valley hate it and, and may hunt those who use it.
Rule #12: Do not disrupt the natural order of the valley. The curse that plagues the valley is delicate and easily disrupted. Avoid stepping on any cracks or disturbing the natural environment. Those who break the natural order will suffer dire consequences.
Rule #13: Do not open any doors unless you know where they lead. Some doors in the valley lead to places best left unexplored. If you do not know where a door leads, do not open it.
Rule #14: Do not climb any trees unless it is necessary. The trees in the valley are alive and may trap you if you climb them. Only climb if it is necessary for your survival.
Rule #15: Do not use any technology unless it is absolutely necessary. The valley is a place of ancient magic, and technology may anger the gods and monsters that reside within it. Use technology sparingly and only when it is necessary for your survival.
Rule #16: Do not pick any flowers unless they're orange, pink or red. Most flowers in the valley are cursed, and those who touch them will suffer a fate worse than death.
Rule #17: Do not enter any caves. The caves in the valley are home to creatures best left undiscovered.
Rule #18: Do not follow any "weird" sounds. The sounds in the valley are often a trap set by the creatures that inhabit it.
Rule #19: Should you spot an Inn with a sign or a placard reads "The Guardian's Grin" on the road-side, you’re in luck! You’ve found a traveller’s haven. Feel free to spend as much time as you want here and even stock up on supplies and, if you have need something, feel free to ask the staff for help. However, try not to be a nuisance and, don't overstay your welcome if you turn out to be a nuisance, the owner doesn't take kindly to those who abuse his hospitality. If you make a mess or, are a nuisance, don't stay for more than a day. And, in case you're wondering, none of the inhabitants of the inn are human no matter how human they look or, act.
Rule #20: Do not stay in one place for too long. This makes you an easier target for the creatures in the valley. Always be on the move, and do not linger in any one place for too long.
Rule #21: Do not attempt to communicate with the gods or monsters unless you have a concrete reason to or you really think you need to. They do not like pointless chatter, and attempting to communicate with them without any concrete reason so will only anger them.
Rule #22: Do not walk in predictable patterns. This can draw unwanted attention from the creatures in the valley. Vary your movements and be unpredictable.
Rule #23: Do not look at the sky, the sky looks like it’s made of silver alloys and, it is utterly incomprehensible to humans because of how “perfect” it is. And, can drive them insane, it is called the “sterling void” for a reason
Rule #24: If you see wooden signs or, milestones, do not read them or look at them for too long, they are memetic hazards.
Rule #25: If you hear screams of help, don't answer them. Don't move, you can't run or hide. Simply pray for salvation for heaven's divine grace. Only move when help comes, you'll know when help comes.
Rule #26: If you see an animal that has gone extinct in your universe, don't fret. It's neutral. It won't attack you unless you attack it.
Rule #27: If you see a loved one or, an object that you cherished but, lost, you are in a different plane of reality. The beings in this reality will try to convince you that you are home, and that everything is back to normal. They will try to keep you there, so be careful not to let your guard down. If you stay too long, you may forget who you really are and become trapped in this false reality forever. Keep in mind that even though the beings in this reality may look like your loved ones or your cherished objects, they are not the same entities and cannot be trusted. Stay alert and focused on finding a way back to your own reality. Look for blue-colored entrances and, exits for they are the only way out.
Rule #28: If you find scrolls, pick them up, they're going to be useful. Unless they're black in which case, they're best avoided as they're memetic hazards.
And just as you put the note back in your pocket, you remember the blue scroll, you take it out. It reads "The Nameless One is a fearsome creature that roams the deepest and darkest corners of the Valley of Gods and Monsters. Its origins are shrouded in mystery, and its true name is lost to the ages, but one thing is certain: it is a force to be reckoned with. Towering over its prey, the Nameless One is covered in an impenetrable layer of obsidian armor, and wields a massive hammer that can crush even the strongest of warriors. Its eyes glow with an otherworldly light, and its roar can shatter the very ground beneath your feet. Few have dared to face the Nameless One and lived to tell the tale, but those who have speak of a creature that is relentless, cunning, and utterly without mercy. If you ever find yourself face to face with the Nameless One, pray that you have the strength, the skill, and the luck to survive its wrath. If you see any of his minions, you will know. Stay away from them, if you harm them, you will anger the Nameless one. And don't fall asleep out in the open unless you want to become food for his minions
Remember, these rules are not to be taken lightly. They're more than just words on a piece of paper. They're like the Nameless One's eldritch serpentine minions, crawling underneath your skin, snaking through your blood and flesh, like a caterpillar playing host to thousands of wasp larvae. Although you may feel weakened, tired and disoriented, it's crucial to push through. Shake off the feeling and continue with unwavering determination. Your survival hinges on your ability to persevere. And, do keep in mind that sometimes you might have to violate these rules but, do not break any of these rules unless explicitly told to ignore a given rule. Only trust notes from me( You'll know if a note is from me) and, non-black scrolls. Do not trust any other source of information though you can try your luck with certain gods, fairies and elementals . But, not all rules necessarily have to be correct. And, do not forget the rules. Forgetting even one of the rules can lead to disastrous consequences.
As you’re about to roll the scroll, you notice a poem at the bottom that reads -
I am a set of rules, both true and false,
Some may lead you right, others may convulse.
Secrets I hold, mysteries I hide,
But beware, dear explorer, for I may misguide.
​
Beware of sneaky contradictions,
And secrets lost in the Void's evictions.
Can you spot the lies, can you see?
Or will they trip you up and deceive?
​
I am a list of rules, some true and some fake,
Read me closely, your life is at stake.
The truth is hidden, the lies intertwined,
Can you spot the deception and leave it behind?
​
But beware, dear reader, for beyond these words,
A darkness looms, like flocks of ominous birds.
The raven is watching, its eyes full of dread,
A symbol of death, of melancholy, and of what lies ahead.
​
You keep exploring.
A voice in the back of your brain keeps chanting "Don’t fall asleep" as you walk.
You keep exploring.

Eh this whole post may be tl:dr, but it's helping me collect my thoughts.
I'm fairly isolated and don't have many friends. I lack confidence when it comes to my ability to connect with other people. One of my closest friends is also a roommate, we've known each other for many years. I struggle with feeling like I annoy him and being unsure if he actually wants to hang out with me. Our friendship feels one sided to me, in the sense that I am the only one who ever initiates contact or us hanging out. He never contacts me first, or asks me to do anything with him. He is very monotone and tends to just go with the flow, participating with stuff that's presented to him. I have a hard time reading whether he is interested in something, or just being passive and agreeable. He tends to respond to things in an aloof way, and never directly turns anything down. It makes me feel really insecure about spending time with him. However I also know that he struggles with depression and isn't the type of person to take initiative with any of the people in his life, so I don't think it's personal and that's why I keep going. This isn't new. I know that our friendship is based on me reaching out to him. But lately it's been really bothering me.
Anyway I am dog sitting right now, I know that he's been feeling depressed lately and he really likes dogs, so I invited him to join us on a walk hoping it would cheer him up. I first asked him if he wanted to go on a dog adventure at the end of the week a couple of days ago and I think he sounded interested. I texted him in the early evening and later called him in case he hadn't noticed my text. He said over the phone that he just needed to get his laundry in the drier and he would come come over in a half hour. It took him an hour and a half to show up, and waiting on him made me feel pretty restless and annoyed. I guess he was late because he wanted to get some stuff done before coming over. But if he wanted to hang out, why would he leave his laundry and personal chores until tonight and choose to do them right then? It's not like there's a hard deadline for any of those tasks. Am I just being too sensitive in being bothered by this? Am I making too many assumptions? Assuming he was interested in hanging out with me and then assuming he wasn't interested because he showed up so late? I asked him if he actually wanted to hang out or just came because I pressured him into it. I complained about our friendship being one sided and that he never asks me to do stuff with him. This sparked an argument with him leaving.
He basically said it was an aggressive and unfriendly question, and that the one time he did try to initiate contact with me I was hostile. This was a couple weeks back when I was having a really rough time mental health wise. I'm having a really rough time of things, with the death of some relatives and my own debilitating health problem. When my mental health gets bad I tend to shut down and have a hard time communicating with people. This time it got so bad that I couldn't even talk. I ended up avoiding everyone. Which I get can seem really rude and be unpleasant to be around. I feel bad about that and I wish I had some better coping mechanisms. In the past when I've struggled with my mental health around my roommate/old friend he's gotten upset because he thinks my mood is because of him. He wants to have a big deep discussion to resolve the issue. I find this stressful. I wish I could have a bad day or a bad week to myself without it being about him. Anyway a couple weeks ago when I was in a bad state and not socializing with him like usual, he asked if I was okay. I was very not okay but was having a hard time speaking. I think I said something along the lines that I'm doing poorly, but it's just something I'm going through and not anything that has to do with him. I also asked him if I need to alert him every time I'm struggling so that he doesn't think it's a conflict between us. I was feeling annoyed at the time because I didn't feel up to talking and the only way he handles those kinds of situations is through having a deep discussion. I was bothered by the idea of having to participate in a talk to listen to how my feelings are making him feel and convince him that I don't have a problem with him. So I ended up coming across as really stand-offish and also avoiding him for the rest of the week. I eventually started to be able to communicate again and get back to having normal interactions. However it bothers him to let things return to normal without discussing it, while these big discussions stress me out.
I get that he's not okay with being treated that way and that it's important to him to be able to confront people when he feels hurt or disrespected. It's wrong for me to make my friend feel so poorly for just trying to check up on me, but I wish I could have a bad day or a bad week without it having to be such a big deal. If anything comes out that he doesn't like he will memorize it and quote it back to me at a later time, to reiterate how much it bothered him. I may say something in the heat of the moment that comes out wrong, that I don't actually agree with, and it feels really awful. He is always able to stay well composed and well spoken. I'm not saying it's okay to say aggressive things to my friend or make him feel bad, but is it not human to loose your temper on occasion? It's something that happens rarely. It feels like he won't give me any leeway to be flawed with communication in a bad moment. I try hard to be a good friend to him. I don't think I'm mean spirited or aggressive as a whole, but he makes me feel pretty bad about myself. I don't know if I'm a bad friend. Are we incompatible as friends? We normally do great as housemates, but I'm not sure if I want to continue next year because I don't feel safe having a full range of emotions in proximity of him and I feel like we make each other's insecurities worse.
The negative interaction we had with the dog walking thing seems like such a small thing. It seems dumb putting this much thought into such a short interaction and such a brief micro conflict. I know my friend probably felt spurred into getting chores done because the idea of doing something fun motivated him after feeling too down to get much done these past few days, and he probably lost track of time or didn't think it would bother me how late he showed up. He probably feels hurt that I would get so frustrated with him when he needs a friend. He probably feels disrespected that I discounted his ability to turn me down and implied that he's only spending time with me because I make him. Thinking of him like that takes away his agency. I know I could have handled my frustration in a less aggressive way and found a nicer way to communicate my feelings. I could have started by asking why he was so late, rather then letting my insecurities tell me that he's late because he doesn't feel like coming and just didn't want to turn me down. I could have calmly told him how his actions made me feel, rather then venting my feelings on him. I could have just focused on tonight, rather then connecting it to a pattern of our overall friendship. I know that's how he's going to take the interaction and he's going to walk to talk about it when I get home.
I'm dreading going home. I know it's going to be awkward. I know he's going to want to have a discussion about this and things can't go back to normal until we do. I know that I am going to shut down and feel a strong urge to avoid him for days, and he won't let this go. I know that I'm not going to be able to effectively talk with him and he's going to take what ever comes out to heart in a bad way. Anything I say has the capacity to hurt him and he seems to get emotionally wounded very deeply very easily. I hate that. I don't want to cause him emotional pain. I feel like he's holding every negative interaction from all his past experiences with people against me, on top of what ever I may do wrong. I'm not sure if he thinks I'm a bad person or a bad friend, and it makes me feel bad. He won't give me the benefit of the doubt and move on, and perhaps I am doing the same to him.

Hello,
I was planning on doing some kind of Mystic Artes popularity contest, but I would have liked to discuss the methodology with you all before starting.
As Reddit only allows a few options, I would have to use an external site (like strawpoll.com , but I'm open to discuss it). Using the methodology used in a recent Final Fantasy popularity contest where people voted for their least favorite characters, here is how I was seeing things : 1 - In a separate round, each game gets its own strawpoll with the top 25% most voted Mystic Artes from a given game getting selected for the actual competition between games. 2- All Mystic Artes then face against each other (I'm guessing that would still leave about 60+ of them) in a series of rounds where people vote for their LEAST favorites. We would progressively decrease the amount of Mystic Artes eliminated as we would advance through the contest, until a winner is crowned.
I had some questions I needed to submit before starting though :

1. Are you interested in such a contest in the first place ? Would you prefer the contest was about characters instead of Mystic Artes ?
   
2. Do we include bosses Mystic Artes ? (I think we do)
   
3. Do we allow multiple participations for a given Mystic Arte used by different characters, like Indignation ? (I think we do)
   
4. Do we allow multiple participations for a given Mystic Arte used by the same character, when said character appears in multiple games (in a cameo battle) ? (I think we don't)
   
5. Do we include summons from Eternia / Symphonia, as those games don't have a lot of Mystic Artes anyway ? (I think we do)
   
6. Do we include Boost-Strikes from Arise ? They're honestly not that different from Xillia 2/Rebirth's dual Mystic Artes (I'm neutral about it)
   
7. How much time would you like a strawpoll for a given round to stay open ?
   

tw - sh/ sa
ever since i was 8 years old i wanted to die so badly, though at the time i was being sexually abused by countless people at the time so i guess that would’ve encouraged that thought but right now i’m trapped, my friends are horrible to me, they hang out people i tell them hurt me like this one guy who groped me on the bus when i was 11 they keep talking to him, and i have no one else to go to when they go up to him at school so i just say i need the bathroom and cry there, also my friend told my crush i liked him even though i told her that if he ever rejected me i would kill myself so i would rather not know his response she did it anyway, lucky he didn’t really give out much of a response and just said something irrelevant and ran away embarrassed but that same friend also humiliated me in front of him in role call saying i called him so big he could fit inside of my little sisters suitcase (the suit case was very wide and was probably 4’11 long) when i never said that, all i said was that my sisters suit case is so big a person could fit in there but she made it seem like i was calling him fat. the person i said i’d kill myself over him not liking me due to him being the only thing i live for she decides to say i called him fat. whenever i try hanging out with someone else other then her she gets mad, saying she feels sad that i don’t hang out with her and saying she feels left out and i’m a people pleaser so it’s really hard to stay away from someone and tell them to go away i just usually do whatever people want me to do it’s not something i can handle, also i’m not even safe when o go home my dad has bipolar and he used to not take his pills so he’d scream at me and my sisters, one time he smashed my older sisters phone and threw metal pipes at her at beated her then threw shit down the stairs breaking the window and one time when i was getting back from primary (elementary) school i saw him grab my dog and throw it outside a open door which the dog got his head stuck on the fence and almost choked to death and other shit he did i can’t remember but he takes his pills now just in terrified of him and my mom used to hit me whenever i did something bad but now she just yells at me, i think she still very badly just wants to hit me again because she said she doenst hit me anymore because it illegal and she really tries her hardly to just yell at me for every small tiny thing i do no matter what she will try to yell and ridicule every small thing i do, i can’t move, think, breathe correctly near her it’s gotten to the point where i get genuine heart dropping fear asoon as i hear foot steps coming forming the stairs , anything im doing i just drop it, quickly clean it all up and run to my room and wait for her to go back upstairs . i can’t even go to my grandma because she’s even worse one time i was at her house and i was extremely sick i couldn’t move or eat properly because of how much it hurts my body and my throat especially it hurt way too much i was crying from trying to eat and my grandma udndt care she just said it was all my fault for ruining the trip( i get holidays when i go to my grandmas house because she actually takes me outside unlike my parents) all my grandma did was give me pain killers and let me sleep for hours in her bed not even awake for probably 20 minutes i just slept for the entire day and entire night . i’m safe no where my most safest place is the library or the toilets at my school because in the library and toilets no one bothers me, looks at me, hit me or screams at me there i can be alone without constant stress but atm that’s the only thing i have and i only have 2 more years of school so it’ll be stripped away from me . i don’t know how to get a job no one will help me with it and i don’t understand it. i’m not covid vaccinated either because my mom thinks i’m not worth it and it’s too expensive. my mom also doenst care for a single problem i have i keep telling her i see shadows of people in the corners of my eye or even afew times someone very clearly just with a weird non human face or they disappear when i blink or turn my head away, she thinks i make it up and doenst care she thinks i do it for attention,i hate myself aswell i think i’m extremely ugly i have so many pimples i just want to rip my face off atp i hate my face i just want to be pretty honestly i jsut want atleast for my crush to like me maybe you know to have just someone to like me but i feel and look too ugly i think . i don’t understand why i can’t have anything i can’t live a day without my friend embarrassing me RIGHT INFRONT OF YHE MAN I WOULD KILL MYSELF OVER I TELL THEM THIS AND THEY JUST DONT FUCKING CAREEE when i told them to stop fucking doing thsi shit and al they did was roll their fucming eyes and give me an annoyed face like what the fuck did i do to deserve this fucking life I JUST WANT TO DIE ALREADY I HATE THIS SHIT WHY CANT I BE FUCKING AHPPY I AHVE YEHDJJHSSVUO
i cry almost every night just thinking of being in a friend group like in year 6 when i had a friend who used to actually care and listen to me. but they never come to school anymore. they can’t handle school and just don’t come anymore.
i have many self harm scars all over my body because of this one time this guy i used to date for in year 6. i got pimples and said he doenst want to date me anymore because i got ugly. i want to die
i will kill myself im sorry if you can’t read some of this im typing this at 8pm while i wait for my mom to go into her car for work so i can go to the kitchen and eat food im happy if anyone even reads the title
i’m so scared of killing my self but death seems to relaxing.. finally getting to sleep without loud noises and alarms i really wish i could die in my sleep so peacefully and not messy but i can’t just do that and i heard overdosing hurts so i don’t know what to do i just want and need to die i have nothing i just want peace

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