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Sorry if that will get long...
I've always been pretty sensitive to noises, but never to the point it would be a big problem for me.
However, the last few years were pretty hard for me, anxiety, health issues, problems in relationship etc. That made me sleep poorly and be bothered more by noises from neighbours or the street. Recently, on top of this, they started new tram line right next to my place and the noise is objectively big (but apparently not loud enough to exceed legal standards because its not constant and they count average). Its not that bad with closed windows (yet noticeable) and my family somehow got used to this, but I went through serious breakdown and nothing is the same since then. I can't sleep even when I am somewhere else. The tiniest noise at night makes me shake and wanna cry. My ears keep scanning environment, my mind keep thinking "Is it tram? loud motorcycle? train? what will come next? when? how many seconds of silence before next one?" I can't accept any noise when trying to fall asleep and even when its silent, Im nerviously waiting for next sound to break it.
I tried earplugs, but then I hear my heart pounding and Im so unfomfortable (and they don't plug my anxious mind after all). Sleeping pills either don't work or make me unacceptably drowsy next day. All anti-anxiety pills I tried gave me terrible side effects, so no, thank you for that. I'm thinking about moving, but I won't do this in the near future.
Anyway, finally to the point. I know that meditation can teach you to be more indifferent to your thoughts and also to the things registered by your senses. I was a bit interested in this some time ago, but never gave it a serious shot. Now I'm thinking - could meditation help me learn to live and sleep with those sounds? Its not level of noise that would be harmful to the ears its just my mind getting panicky every time I hear it. How can I work on that using meditation? Is it even possible?
I will be grateful for all opinions and tips.

Recently I did 2 grams of golden teachers and though I definitely felt something I didn't trip nearly as much as I thought I would. I've done shrooms a good amount of times, but the most recent and relevant experience I have to compare was about two months ago, also 2 grams. That trip was not extremely intense (most I've ever done is 3.5 grams GT, but I've also had some pretty intense experiences from smaller doses of PE), but it was much more visual and more of a trip than this one. I'm trying to figure out what the difference was that caused this trip to be a lot weaker. here are some relevant pieces of information:

1. I dried this more recent batch at a higher temperature than the first batch (158 F, the first was 122 F but I realized after the first couple of harvests that this temperature was not drying them fully and had to experiment with higher temperatures until I found one that seemed to consistently work). I was worried that perhaps the higher temperature degraded potency, but I know that this point is debated.
   
2. I have the subjective experience of my partner as an indicator that this batch was not less strong than the first one, because they did 2 grams both times as well and told me that they felt like their experiences were about the same in terms of intensity. This leads me to believe that it was me, not the shrooms, that caused the difference in my experience.
   
3. I am not on any type of psychiatric medication. I have previously been on Lexapro and then effexor but it has been about two years since I was on either of those.
   
4. I ate a full meal before both experiences, which I almost always do before any trip, because I do not function well when I am hungry.
   
5. I did one tab of acid two weeks before this second experience. I think this is the most likely factor, but I thought that the cross tolerance from LSD would be gone after two weeks.
   
6. The first time, I made a tea and also ate most of the mushroom bits from the tea. The second time, I just ate the dried mushrooms. This has been my preferred method in the past because I don't mind the taste or texture, and after trying the tea last time I did not like the abrupt come-up. I expected eating them dry to give a slower and less intense come up but I figured the peak would still be about the same in terms of intensity. Maybe I was wrong about this?
   
7. I didn't smoke weed at all during the first trip. I started hitting my dry herb vape about halfway through the second trip because I wasn't tripping very hard, but it didn't do a whole lot to increase the intensity - in past experiences I could rely on weed to boost the visuals when I wanted it to be more intense, so I'm not sure if the trip was just that weak or if there's something about vaping vs smoking that would cause it to have less of an intensifying effect.
   

So, we already discussed what DC was doing to match the tenor of the early years of the War on Terror: A grim, smarter-than-it-thinks miniseries full of gratuitous rape that was meant to take the shine off the Silver Age by showing the darker side of its greatest heroes. Marvel, on the other hand, was trying to find a way to capture the zeitgeist of a post-9/11 era of existential threats, constant government surveillance, and the idea that if you weren’t with America, you were against it. A Captain America storyline saw Cap wrestle with the very concept of Guantanamo Bay; like any story arc that involves Cap doubting whether America lives up to its ideals, this made certain conservatives pissy, to the point that bad movie cataloguer Michael Medved wrote an entire article asking if Cap was a traitor. Avengers Disassembled briefly saw the Avengers face down their demons, as the Scarlet Witch goes crazy (again) and starts killing team members, her reality manipulations causing fault lines to form among Marvel’s greatest superteam. But there hadn’t yet been a storyline that would tie the entire Marvel Universe together with the burning question, “Which side are you on?”
Yeah, it’s got nothing to do with the Sokovia Accords. We’d be a lot better off if it did.
Part 1: Mark Millar’s March to the C-Word
Content Warning: Sexual assault. None of this is germane to the topic of the drama, so feel free to skip ahead to Part 1.5 if you don’t want to deal with this. Tl;dr: Mark Millar, the writer of the event, has a near pathological need to be a 3edgy5u contrarian.
Every comics crossover is ultimately a chance for one creative in the stable to shine or falter. The editors pick a writer who has turned out dependable work and give them a chance to try to alter the status quo but good. And for Civil War, Marvel’s EiC Joe Quesada decided the best person to lead the charge was Ultimates writer Mark Millar.
But who is Millar? Well, we could say “edgelord” and leave it at that, but we’re trying to dig deeper. Millar came up in comics alongside fellow Scot Grant Morrison, long before Morrison said the only time they want to bump into Millar on the streets of Glasgow is while going at 100 miles per hour. This antipathy is alleged to have stemmed from Millar copping several ideas from Morrison that went into Superman: Red Son. But after getting a start on Superman Adventures and as a cowriter on parts of Morrison’s JLA run, Millar soon branched out to WildStorm, where he took over The Authority from departing creatowritesex pest Warren Ellis.
The reason I bring up Red Son (for those non-geeks, an alternative universe comic premised on “What if Superman’s rocket had landed in Soviet Russia?”) is to frame a constant refrain about Mark Millar. He has good high-concept ideas… which often get trammeled up in an almost Pavlovian urge to shock, disturb, and/or titillate the reader. For instance, in The Authority, Ellis had introduced Apollo and Midnighter, two close companions who just happened to share the rough power sets and demeanors of Superman and Batman, with a few tweaks. Then he revealed they were boyfriends, which was a pretty bold move for a late Nineties comic book full of widescreen action and lovingly-rendered eviscerations.
In Millar’s first arc on the title, centered on a villainous Jack Kirby clone sending out a team of baddies who totally aren’t the Avengers, Apollo is subdued and is strongly implied to have been raped by someone who’s not Captain America. Apollo gets revenge by destroying EvilCap’s spinal column with his laser vision, then leaving him to the tender mercies of Midnighter, who is strongly implied to have sodomized him with a jackhammer.
In case you can’t tell, Millar loved him some rape. And it kept showing up in his creator-owned titles as well, all of which were basically written as Hollywood pitch docs. Wanted asks the question, “What if the supervillains won and secretly ruled the world from behind the scenes?” Well, an Eminem clone would take the opportunity to step into his dead villainous dad’s shoes and commit a lot of rape (yeah, there’s a reason the movie version replaced this with basically the Euthanatos from Mage: the Ascension getting orders from a magic loom). Chosen asks the question, “What if Jesus were born today?” Well, in a blatantly obvious twist, it turns out he’s actually the Antichrist, and part of his journey into realizing his evil nature involves being raped by all the demons of Hell.
It’s not that Millar can’t write innocent or restrained; he got started on the Superman: the Animated Series comic spin-off, and some of his titles such as Huck and Starlight have been praised for being relatively wholesome (keep in mind Huck is basically “What if Superman was Forrest Gump?” when I say “relatively”). And, as mentioned above, his works are made for high-concept log lines. You might recognize some of his various pitch docs: Kick-Ass, The Secret Service (source for the Kingsman movies), and, as mentioned above, Wanted. It’s just there’s this unctuous contrarian streak to a lot of his titles, a tendency to focus on venality, grotesquerie, and sodomy, with an air of pop culture edge. This also leaked into his image outside of his writing, with comments like “Games are for pedos” and ventures like the creator-owned comics periodical CLiNT (yes, the kerning is intentional). This streak continues to this day, as The Magic Order, a title that emerged from his deal with Netflix, features a magical escapologist who, she feels it very important to tell the reader in a direct monologue, [escaped her own abortion](4wcj6yw1yqa11.jpg). Bottom line, Millar has a sense of vision, but it’s betrayed at times by this reflexive desire to prove he’s smarter than the reader, to rub your face in the contradictions and make you a party to the artifice of it all. Usually with a dash of rape.
But at Marvel, Millar was riding the lightning of the Ultimate Universe. His Ultimates title was drawing on the wide-screen action image of JLA and The Authority, creating the cinematic language that would come to define the MCU. The choice to fantasy cast Samuel L. Jackson as Nick Fury is why we have Samuel L. Jackson as Nick Fury. He also painted the Hulk as a cannibalistic monster, cemented Hank Pym’s reputation as a wifebeater, and gave us Captain America yelling “Surrender? Do you think this A on my head stands for France?”, so let’s just keep that in perspective.
But the Ultimate Universe was its own pocket universe. Millar was being tapped to write a story for Earth-616, the main Marvel Universe. And he had a vision:

“I opted instead for making the superhero dilemma something a little different. People thought they were dangerous, but they did not want a ban. What they wanted was superheroes paid by the federal government like cops and open to the same kind of scrutiny. It was the perfect solution and nobody, as far as I'm aware, has done this before.”

Yeah. About that.
Part 1.5: What Has Come Before
Ultimately, the crux of Civil War is something that has been explored lightly in the past at Marvel: The idea that, instead of being unlicensed vigilantes who decide the best solution of societal issues is to beat up assholes in spandex, superheroes become licensed government officers that register their true identities with Uncle Sam and solve societal issues by beating up assholes in spandex. In Marvel’s history, it hasn’t gone well. The reality of government liaisons to superhero bodies has ranged from Valerie Cooper, who worked with government mutant team X-Factor but still found herself backing the genocidal Sentinel program as a big “Yeah, but what if…?”, to Henry Peter Gyrich, an inflamed obstructionist asshole who had to be held back from flipping a switch that would depower every superhuman individual on Earth. The idea of heroes themselves bristling against a government they disagreed with had a long history, as there was a period where Steve Rogers quit being Captain America, and the government had to find a replacement while he rode around on a motorcycle in a surprisingly slutty costume. But the idea of registering with the government has usually ended up on the “No” side due to one big cohort at Marvel: Mutants.
Ever since the days of Chris Claremont, a general conceit of the Marvel Universe is that mutants are a stand-in for your minority group of choice. Hated and feared, born different and feeling alienated, painted as an existential menace and threat to the status quo. Of course, it’s long been pointed out that the metaphor breaks down on the general grounds that, say, gays can’t shoot laser beams out of their eyes. I have my thoughts on that which I might share in the comments if someone pokes me hard enough, but it’s been general editorial consensus that people with powers, especially those of persecuted minorities, being compelled to share their true names, addresses, and natures with the federal government is a “That train’s never late!” move. Not only that, it’s a slippery slope. The classic X-Men story “Days of Future Past” is entirely premised on the idea that a government program of genocidal robots built to wipe out mutants will eventually run out of mutants… and then start turning on humans who could give birth to mutants, and then it’s Skynet all over again.
Another running meme in the Marvel Universe is that the X-Men usually exist in a Schrodinger’s cat situation with the rest of the superhero universe, both coexisting and in their own worlds. Yes, mutants have served on the Avengers, and yes, Thor intervened when the Morlocks were nearly wiped out in the sewers under New York. But Captain America, for all his proud statements of living up to America’s ideals, has a habit of missing the plot whenever the US government (or Canada, seat of all the Marvel Universe’s governmental evils - no, really) decides it’s Genocide O’Clock. And when the mutant nation of Genosha was completely wiped out by said murder robots, the Avengers seemed to be all “New phone who dis?” But when the two do intersect, there’s usually support for the mutants. One story in Fantastic Four had Reed Richards - Mr. Fantastic, stretchy man, greatest genius in the Marvel Universe, guy who’s probably being cucked by a fish-man - get tapped by the US government to make a device that detects mutants and other people with powers. He does… and then uses it to show why the government probably doesn’t want it, as it pings several members of Congress as having just enough genetic variation to qualify as “mutants,” even if they don’t have powers.
All in all, while the argument has some merit, for years, Marvel has come down on the position that asking people with powers to reveal their identities to the federal government is something that could go really bad if somebody with a hate-on for superheroes ends up in power. Something that would never happen oh yeah it totally did. But before it all went to Hell, Civil War at least gave an opportunity to reexamine the concept and see if it had merit.
It might have. But not with this argument.
Part 1.75: What Else Has Happened Before?
And now, some things that will ultimately give context for what happens next:

• In the pages of Thor, all of Asgard eventually runs headlong into Ragnarok. Thor and the rest of the Asgardians give their lives to save the earth, taking Thor off the board… for now.
• As mentioned above, the Avengers experience a critical fault due to Wanda going batshit (a common lament). With Avengers Mansion destroyed and the team at odds, it is eventually reunited under Tony Stark, who put the Avengers up in a tower he built.
• Nick Fury has vanished due to doing some skullduggery in the pages of the miniseries Secret War (no, not Secret Wars**, this is different). Acting head of SHIELD, the all-purpose super spy squad of Marvel, is Maria Hill, who can’t seem to draw her pistol without shooting herself in the foot.
• Due to Wanda continuing to go batshit, the House of M crossover event ends with her casting a spell: “No more mutants.” While the damage is staunched, Earth-616’s population of mutants (which was recently established to be somewhere around 16 million, meaning they outnumber Native Americans or the Romani) is reduced to 200, the rest being depowered or dying as a result of being depowered. This was because, as Editor-in-Chief Joe Quesada said, the idea of mutants being everywhere made them “boring.” The fact that mutants were starting to be written less as a minority stand-in and more as an actual minority group with fashion, culture, music, and neighborhoods might have had something to do with that. From the wake of this event emerges Sally Floyd, a journalist whose own mutant daughter died before the mass depowering due to having a power that was more curse than blessing. The series Generation M follows her as the viewpoint character as she investigates the stories of former mutants.

Part 2: Connecticut Can’t Catch a Break
The big kick-off for Civil War involves the New Warriors, a team of teen heroes who have, as of a recently canceled series, been trying to make it big as reality TV stars. They get in a fight with a bunch of villains in the small town of Stamford, CT, when exploding villain Nitro goes positively nuclear, resulting in a blast much bigger than any he’s generated.@ Not only does this mostly wipe out the New Warriors (save for kinetic energy-absorbing goofball Speedball), but it also happens to hit a nearby school. In the end, 612 people are dead, many of them children, and the nation wants answers.
With public opinion turning against the New Warriors, former member Hindsight starts leaking secret identities to get the heat off his back. This only makes things worse. Secret identities have only recently stopped being a thing for some heroes: Captain America only came out a few years ago, it was only recently that Tony Stark stopped pretending Iron Man was his bodyguard, and Daredevil was almost outed in the pages of his book. But something needs to be done, so Tony helps work with Congress to pass the Super Human Registration Act, which requires that all people with powers or working as vigilantes register their identities with the government to receive training and oversight. If you don’t? Believe it or not, jail, right away.
Fault lines quickly develop in the superhero community. While Tony is leading the “pro” side, alongside Reed Richards (yeah, we’ll get to that), Captain America, usually painted as the embodiment of the dream of America despite its compromised history and many sins, is against it. He’s lived through Richard Nixon being a secret fascist and shooting himself in the head after being fingered as mastermind of a vast criminal conspiracy ([yes, that happened](SE02.jpg) ); he knows how badly this could go in the wrong hands. Needless to say, Maria Hill and SHIELD hear his concerns, understand his problems with it, and are willing to iron out the kinks through reasoned debate.
Just kidding. Before the law has even been signed, Maria sics SHIELD’s elite Cape-Killers squad on Cap with the intent of getting him behind bars. Cap swiftly goes underground and starts his own group of anti-registration superheroes.
The fight continues for the next few issues. Spider-Man, caught in the middle, reveals himself to be Peter Parker at a press conference, declaring his support for the SHRA. Doctor Strange is so powerful that he tells the government to fuck off, and somehow, Maria Hill doesn’t decide to go charging up his asshole. Ben Grimm, the ever-loving blue-eyed Thing, is so sick of all the conflict he goes to France. But things are still at a stalemate, and while SHIELD may be acting like a bunch of merry assholes, it seems like there’s a debate to be had that could still be resolved reasonably… except for one key factor.
Part 3: I Fought the Law, and the Law… Huh?
No one ever really defined what the Super Human Registration Act, the legislation that tore the Marvel Universe’s superhero community asunder, did. Every book that had an issue that touched on the event seemed to have a different understanding of its principles, as well as just how fascist it might be in the long run. In the pages of She-Hulk, attorney Jennifer Walters/She-Hulk argues the law is a net good, as it gives heroes the backing and resources they need to not have to go it alone, while also having some measure of government oversight. In the pages of Civil War Frontline (oh, and we’ll get back to Civil War Frontline, don’t you worry), Wonder Man is told by the government that he needs to do a job for them, and if he refuses, well, one thousand years dungeon.
Which then leads into the other issue behind the SHRA. Namely, that everyone in favor was either starting to swing towards fascism or embracing bootlicking as a lifestyle, not a kink. In the pages of Amazing Spider-Man, Peter asks Reed Richards, who has always bucked authority and once stopped the US government from doing something just like this with mutants, why he’s pro-registration. Reed then reveals that an uncle who has never been mentioned before was called before HUAC; he refused to name names, his career was ruined, and he killed himself. From this, Reed - the man who stole a rocketship because the government said “no” to his planned space voyage - has learned that the government is always right, especially when they could step on your neck (this was received so badly that a later comic revealed he’d actually borrowed the concept of psychohistory from Asimov’s Foundation, he’d made it work somehow, and his calculations showed that this was the only way to avoid a greater disaster). This comic also revealed that people who were in violation of the SHRA were sent to a literal extradimensional Gitmo, a prison in the Negative Zone that later comics would reveal was overseen by… Captain Marvel. No, not that one. No, not that one. The Kree superhero Captain Mar-Vell, who had famously died of cancer decades before. How did he come back from the dead? Fuck if we know.
This “the law says what you want it to say” approach spread across various books and miniseries meant to cross over into the event. In the pages of a crossover mini between the Runaways and the Young Avengers, this meant SHIELD Cape-Killer squads were using lethal force against teenagers. The second-to-last issue of the mini ends with several members of both teams in extradimensional Gitmo, about to be dissected by a guy who’s horny for torture. The fact that all the captive heroes were the queer members of both teams? Total coincidence. Honestly.
So, it quickly becomes clear that the editorial control on this event is less than cohesive. There are different ideas all over as to what the SHRA does, and some of those ideas are tacking pretty fashy. But if the law is being painted as that bad, then clearly, there must be some greater statement of freedom vs. security. Maybe Millar’s really painting a subversive picture of what happens when you trade liberty for control, right?
Part 4: Why Do You Hate the Good Thing?
After the publication of Civil War #3, Millar would say in an interview he was actually pro-registration. I can’t find that interview, but here’s a similar sentiment shared years later:

“Weirdly, some of the other writers would often make Tony the bad guy, which I thought was a strange choice because I was actually on Tony’s side... In the real world, if somebody had superpowers, I’d like them to be registered in the same way that somebody who has a gun has to carry a license. But a gun can kill several people while a superhero can kill several thousands of people, so on a pragmatic level I’m 100% on Tony’s side. Maybe on a romantic level, Cap’s position makes sense but I don’t think anybody in the real world would really want that."”

And again, here’s the thing: He’s not entirely wrong. As said above, the idea of civil liberties for all and “free to me you and me” falls down a little when one of your neighbors can blow up a city block by thinking real hard. But Millar is fighting against years of ideological inertia in the Marvel Universe, as well as painting Captain America, the guy who has always embodied the ideal of a righteous, just America, as in the wrong. He needs to make one hell of an argument.
So here’s what happens in the pages of Civil War #3 to sell the audience on the SHRA:

• Thor comes back from the dead… and he’s on Tony’s side! Well, not really. Tony and Reed both realized that having one of the most beloved gods of the Marvel Universe come out on their side would be a big win… if only he wasn’t dead. So, they cloned him. Or rather, they T-800’d him, putting cloned divine flesh on a robot skeleton. But I’m sure he’s perfectly under control, and - oh, he just killed Goliath. In the next issue, one of Marvel’s black male heroes, frozen at the size of a small townhouse in death, will be buried in a gigantic ditch, wrapped in a tarp and chains. You’d think Hank Pym could grow a large enough coffin, at least.
• With Cap and the anti-registration side escaping once again, Tony decides he needs a dedicated team that can track down fugitive superhumans. To do so, he creates a new version of the Thunderbolts, a concept long associated with “villains acting like heroes.” And who does he put on this team? Venom, the Spider-Man villain who eats people’s brains; Bullseye, the Daredevil villain who will kill anyone for the lulz; and Norman Osborn, a.k.a. The Green Goblin, who famously murdered Spider-Man’s girlfriend Gwen Stacy.

Again. Tony’s in the right. The SHRA is good.
Part 5: Yadda, Yadda, Yadda
The next few issues of Civil War might best be described as “They fight, and fight, and fight and fight and fight.” The anti-registration side picks up The Punisher, Marvel’s most avowed murderer of criminals - and Cap is somewhat shocked but not entirely surprised when two minor villains join the anti-registration side and Frank promptly kills them on sight. Spider-Man starts realizing things are weird on the pro-reg side and defects, after he has set his entire life on fire. The X-Men have continued to stay out of this whole mess. In the lead-up, Emma Frost called Tony out on the Avengers’ complete absence when Genosha got nuked. Later, Carol Danvers (then Ms. Marvel, now Captain Marvel) will show up at the Xavier School to pitch the SHRA just after a massive terrorist attack kills dozens of students. Emma responds by telepathically dogwalking her.
By the final issue of the miniseries, the SHRA has expanded out into the Fifty States Initiative, wherein each state gets its own superteam. There’s a big final battle, Hercules kills Robo-Thor, and Cap nearly takes out Tony, only to be stopped by… the heroes of 9/11. No shit, Captain America is subdued by cops, firefighters, and paramedics. And when that happens, Cap finally takes a look around, realizes their big ideological street brawl has resulted in collateral damage, and surrenders. The SHRA wins, though Tony feels a little bad about it. Cap is ready to stand trial and to argue that, while he may have done something wrong, he did it for the right reasons.
Once again: Yeah. About that.
Part 6: MySpace Tom Didn’t Die For This
Running alongside Civil War is Civil War Frontline, a street-level book written by Paul Jenkins that managed to capture this world-breaking conflict through the eyes of people on the street. Though it has side stories, its main leads are Ben Urich, Peter Parker’s journalist buddy at The Daily Bugle, and the aforementioned Sally Floyd. Throughout the series, they start to realize there’s a story underneath the SHRA, as if somebody is playing the angles.
Before we talk about that conclusion, let’s talk about a side story. Remember how we said part of the comics community saw Identity Crisis as a driven effort to make things less “wacky” and intentionally darken the DCU? Well, that same tonal approach led to one of the more laughable moments of a pretty laughable arc. See, despite the fact that, as established, it was Nitro who blew up Stamford, it’s Speedball, the only survivor of the New Warriors, that views himself as responsible and is held up as a scapegoat by the general public. In addition, the blast screwed up his powers. Now, he doesn’t absorb and reflect kinetic energy; rather, he generates energy based on pain. So, he builds himself a new, extreme outfit lined with 612 spikes, one for each person who died in Stamford. This will drive his crusade to make things right - not as Speedball… but as Penance.
It was so laughably DeviantArt “OC do not steal” that no one could take it seriously. Look what you did, you took a perfectly good goofball and gave him an emo streak. The turn is swiftly mocked in other Marvel books, and it’s eventually revealed that Speedball still had his original powerset and always intended to put Nitro in the Goofy Suit of Dark Inner Torment as punishment for his crimes. But this turn gives you a sense of the tone and heft Jenkins was bringing to the proceedings.
Anyway, back to the main plot. Ben and Sally follow the thread as Namor, as he is wont to do, declares war on the surface world after an Atlantean diplomat is shot. But it turns out the assassination was arranged by Norman Osborn, who decided it was better to beg forgiveness than ask permission and manipulated Atlantis into war so that Tony could have another piece of evidence for getting superhumans on a leash. And the two journalists deduce that, on some level, Tony had to know this would be an inevitable outcome of giving state backing to an unhinged mogul who dresses like a Power Rangers villain. Weighing what to do with this information, Ben and Sally, who are kind of sick of the collateral damage by this point, sit on it while they go in for an interview with Captain America, now in custody and willing to tell his side of the story.
And then. And then. The monologue. If you want a lesson in how to assassinate a character in 30 seconds or less, this monologue is a great example. Sally Floyd calls Captain America out as completely divorced from American values. Now, again, Captain America has long served as the beating liberal heart of the Marvel Universe. He has always represented an America that reckons with its legacy of things like internment camps, Manifest Destiny, and Jim Crow, in order to transcend these scars and embody the promise offered by Emma Lazarus’s New Colossus, carved on the side of the Statue of Liberty. Why is he out of touch with Americans at the dawn of the 21st century?
Well, he’s never heard of MySpace@@. He doesn’t watch NASCAR. He doesn’t follow American Idol. There are pop culture moments that have aged like milk; this one had all the permanence of an ice cream cone in a blast furnace. But despite the inanity of Floyd’s argument - and trust me, there are fan edits dedicated to Cap pointing out how full of shit this argument is - it’s clear it represents something else. This is a post-9/11 world. Fuck civil liberties, we have a no-fly list and Gitmo, and if the American people really cared, they’d do something other than watch Simon Cowell read aspiring singers to filth. What does Captain America stand for in this moment of crisis?
Nothing. Because he just looks away from Sally Floyd. No doubt thinking, “Oh my God this bitch.” But to underline the argument in question, Sally storms out of the interview, Ben in tow. She still has that information on Norman Osborn’s false flag operation… and while she and Ben confront Tony on everything that went down, they decide the story should never see the light of day. Because they wouldn’t dare jeopardize the SHRA, because security is more important than the truth.
Oh. And then Cap gets shot. And dies. He totally dies (except he doesn’t but we’ll get to that). If ever there was an unintentional thesis statement for this event, running in the late stages of the Bush era, it would be this: “It’s better to trust that the powers that be who oversee the new America will keep you safe, even when they stage false flag operations, stick you in a gulag, and put their trust in monsters. All that civil liberty stuff was the old America. And the old America was hopeless. It wasn’t even on MySpace.”
Epilogue: Consequences Keep Consequencing
As you can tell from that last paragraph, a lot of the fan reception to Civil War likely had a lot to do with the period. This was the Bush era, a time where you were for America or against it. We were in the shadow of the Patriot Act, Gitmo, and widespread wiretaps, paranoid about what civil liberty we’d be asked to put on the pyre next in the name of Freedom. A story all about the warm, clenching fist of government control that tells you to ignore the collateral damage… well, it wasn’t great for the cultural moment.
The ideas of Civil War aren’t necessarily bad ones. I frame Cap as the liberal dream of what America could be, but there are good arguments to be made that America has never been that and Cap is just copium for liberals. His most recent title, Sentinel of Liberty, opens with Steve saying he is out of touch with the average American - not because he doesn’t watch NASCAR, but because he’s a WWII veteran who looks maybe 30 years old at most and whose best friends are all superheroes or spies. A narrative that has him on the wrong side of the issue and detonates his beliefs isn’t impossible, but it probably shouldn’t be one where people who got powers due to a fluke of birth or a radiation accident are told by the government, “Join with us or we’ll send supervillains after you.” Hell, as the Civil War movie proves, there is a way to tell a story about a superhero community torn in half by the idea of mandatory registration as government-controlled actors, and just why people would think that could be a bad idea (“Hey, remember when a good chunk of our intelligence apparatus turned out to be Nazi stay behinds?”).
But in the context of the era, and coupled with the execution, Civil War felt like a hard sell, and you could feel the thumb pressing on the scale every second while reading it. The moral center of the Marvel Universe is wrong, the winning side employs sadistic murderers and has an extradimensional Gitmo, and the writer is telling you that any sane individual would be on Team Green Goblin Employer.
So how did that all work out? Well…

• With Cap seemingly dead, shot by his brainwashed love interest Sharon Carter as part of a plot by the Red Skull, Bucky Barnes/the Winter Soldier becomes the new Cap. Only it turns out Steve wasn’t killed, but shot with a time bullet that Billy Pilgrims his ass. He eventually comes back.
• Thor comes back, finds out what Tony did, and beats his ass all the way across post-Katrina New Orleans.
• The Secret Invasion event happens next, which leads to Skrull infiltrators hitting everything (this is also the explanation for Captain Mar-Vell’s miraculous resurrection: He was a Skrull all along). With Tony caught with his pants down and Norman Osborn seeming to save the day, Norman - who has been losing his shit for some time - takes over the Initiative and forms his own fascist cabal, HAMMER. To try and stop Norman from learning everything on every hero ever, Tony goes on the run and actually starts deleting his own brain, which he then reassembles with a backup from before anyone even thought of the SHRA. The fact that getting rid of Tony’s “Oops I did a fascism” period came out alongside Iron Man hitting theaters is a coincidence, I’m sure.

As for Spider-Man? It might not shock you, but having a hero without the resources of Tony Stark out himself to the world carries liabilities. An assassin who tries to kill Peter instead hits Aunt May, and it appears she’ll die of her injuries. All this leads to One More Day… and if you thought the fans hated Civil War? Oh, BABY.
@This is eventually explored in the pages of Wolverine, of all books, as Wolverine decides maybe somebody should track down the person who actually killed hundreds of children. It’s revealed that Nitro was given power-boosting drugs by the CEO of Damage Control, Marvel’s designated “clean up after the super-battle” corporation, as a way of generating business. In a sign of how little this matters, Wolverine tells Maria Hill to her face that the person responsible for a mass casualty event is the pawn of a powerful conspiracy, and she basically says, “Not my problem.” Cobie Smulders must thank the gods that her Maria Hill is written as somebody with basic human decency.
@@Hilariously, when Sally Floyd was brought back during Nick Spencer’s Captain America run because no one had piled enough dung on her corpse, this line was retconned to her asking him about Twitter. Given everything Elon’s been doing lately, we’ll see if that ages just as poorly.

So my priority membership expired the end of May. I'd had a 6 month membership from the end of last year.
Now, through May Nvidia ran a 40% discount promotion. But I didn't get an email about it. I didn't get to know about it.
It got mentioned if you followed a link in one of the Geforce Thursday emails, but the discount itself wasn't mentioned in any email I got and I get quite a few.
Nvidia should send out a specific email regarding discounts, and maybe offer a discount to folks who's membership is running down to keep them onboard. Certainly if there's a promo on when their membership is expiring.
Upshot is, because of lack of awareness, I haven't resubscribed and now won't - certainly not until another discount comes around likely near Xmas.
I know. Cry me a river right? But the point is, it's a pretty crappy and out of touch way of going about things these days when I figure they'd love as many users as they can get.

I really need help finding an ASD mentor who can help me navigate my changing workplace environment. I was able to find mentor services for teens and professional mentorship programs in the UK. I am looking for a mentor in the USA, preferably a woman.
In 2019, I was given the most amazing role I could have imagined at work. I got to work when was best for me. Every new developer came through my training program before moving onto their development team. I got great reviews from new hires, coworkers, and managers. I got feedback that many people were impressed at how great a job I was doing. I was absolutely THRIVING!
Several weeks ago, without any ceremony, discussion, or warning, I was given the role of Scrum Master. This means that it is now my job to facilitate team meetings. I went from like 3 hours of planned meetings a week to facilitating over 10 hours and attending more. In addition to that, I'm supposed to do some subset of my previous job, but I'm not sure what parts are the right things to do, since I've been told that the job of training is going back to the individual teams. I'm so overwhelmed that I'm crying right now. The context switching from Scrum Master to Knowledge Management is a very slow process. It takes me like 30 minutes to shift from one to the other, so it feels like I'm not accomplishing anything. By the time I'm working again, it's almost time for another meeting.
It doesn't help that I was in this role about a decade ago and was ASSAULTED AT THE OFFICE IN THE COURSE OF MY JOB AS SCRUM MASTER. Yes, really. And, yes... my boss and people who I think could control this decision are fully aware of that and the nearly decade of Complex PTSD that it left me with. My case was so severe that I couldn't go anywhere without triggering PTSD. Sometimes I couldn't even stay in my own backyard. I could easily trigger it over a dozen times a day. For years, I didn't understand that's what it was. I'm really struggling with psychological trauma of being a Scrum Master again, all this context switching, and climbing uphill against my brain to fulfill my new job duties.
I've gone from having a job that used all of my strengths and didn't require struggling against my weakest areas to a job that uses very few of my strengths and relies very heavily on my greatest weaknesses. I feel like I'm being set up to fail. I just want to go outside and hang out with the bees and forget that anybody else even exists...

A request for help...
***Apologies for posting this here but i dont have enough karma to post on any help pages so my post gets auto deleted instantly im just trying to get any help if possible***
Hi everyone this is the first time im trying for help from the internet would be really grateful and appreciative if someone could help as i dont know what to do atm.
Financially things have been really hard for me recently i will be paid next week wednesday but i have run out of food for a week now and i really cant stomach the pain anymore after now not eating a proper meal in 5 days. I will be paid end of the month but could really do with some help for food right now i have no one else i can ask unfortunately and i live alone. £10-£15 would be plenty for a small shop to last me the next 7 days. Or if anyone were to help with a just eat/uber eats voucher you can buy them from amazon and gift it someone. I could make a few hot meals last me or i have a paypal which is [email protected] which i can use to do a small food shop. Thanks for taking the time out to read this.

What will you be doing with this PC? Be as specific as possible, and include specific games or programs you will be using.
Mostly just gaming (Modded minecraft with shaders, rdr2 with highest settings possible, maybe some AAA games), watching shows and videos
What is your maximum budget before rebates/shipping/taxes?
1500€-1800€
When do you plan on building/buying the PC? Note: beyond a week or two from today means any build you receive will be out of date when you want to buy.
Will try to order everything online today or tomorrow.
What, exactly, do you need included in the budget? (ToweOS/monitokeyboard/mouse/etc)
Probably everything as it's a completely new build. Apart from the parts i already listed down below.
Which country (and state/province) will you be purchasing the parts in? If you're in US, do you have access to a Microcenter location?
Belgium. I have no Microcenter near me.
If reusing any parts (including monitor(s)/keyboard/mouse/etc), what parts will you be reusing? Brands and models are appreciated.
Monitor (Asus TUF VG24VQ 144hz), keyboard (MSI Vigor), mouse (Razer Deathadder V2) and headset (Razer Blackshark V2 X)
Will you be overclocking? If yes, are you interested in overclocking right away, or down the line? CPU and/or GPU?
No, not interested in overclocking.
Are there any specific features or items you want/need in the build? (ex: SSD, large amount of storage or a RAID setup, CUDA or OpenCL support, etc)
I would like a 2tb SSD for gaming and a 250gb SSD for programs and OS.
What type of network connectivity do you need? (Wired and/or WiFi) If WiFi is needed and you would like to find the fastest match for your wireless router, please list any specifics.
WiFi, i am currently using a Netgear A7000 adapter.
Do you have any specific case preferences (Size like ITX/microATX/mid-towefull-tower, styles, colors, window or not, LED lighting, etc), or a particular color theme preference for the components?
Some red LEDs would be nice in the tower but i can add my own down the line.
Do you need a copy of Windows included in the budget? If you do need one included, do you have a preference?
I do need one and would like one that is best suited for my gaming needs and other related things for PC.
Extra info or particulars:
I have just one question. I see most pcpartpickers have no case fans but the case itself. Sometimes i see cases with fans already in them. Are they more than enough?
I also will go a bit over my budget if needed.

TLDR: Selling my first 'dream home' and returning to renting feels like such a step backwards. I know it's the right choice for me mentally to move to an area that's better for me, but personal development wise I feel like I kinda failed. This was supposed to be my forever home. This was a new construction home. No one else lived here, this was all mine and I had the freedom to do as I pleased. Now I'm going back to being at the mercy of someone who can remove me from 'my home' whenever they want. There's always going to be that sense of "this is home, but not really MY home." For those of you who went from home ownership back to renting, did you experience this?
Below is a bit of a rant and all the things I went through. A bit of a wake up call about homeownership:
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2 years ago I went through the building process with one of the big corporations that does home builds, and it was a NIGHTMARE. The construction manager was an alcoholic and eventually go arrested when many of us in the neighborhood kept reporting him to the police for driving drunk like a madman through the neighborhood. I lucked out and got a 4% interest rate...BUT, it would have been 2.9% but the office lady "forgot to submit my work order" for MONTHS so my property sat with no activity while others who went under contract months after me were already living in their homes when mine was still grass.
While all the outstanding issues in my home are cosmetic, it took years off my life having to come here every weekend to see what the construction crew was messing up this time or what trouble they were getting into. Things like drinking parties, yes, legit all of them blasting music pounding down beers in my unfinished kitchen with the manager, having their kids draw pictures in the concrete with rocks that took me forever to sand away, doing everything wrong and constantly having to remind the manager, it left such a bitter taste in my mouth. I reported it to the director of construction for that company in my region. He even came down, apologized and then ghosted me. No one was ever fired or anything.
When I finally closed on the house and moved in I was so bitter towards the house, which sucked cause before even moving here I would visit this neighborhood and just be like "one day! One day I'll own a house in a neighborhood like this!" and even though it was stressful visiting most weekends to find bad things going on, there was still some hope and excitement that "that's my house! No one lived in it ever, it's mine and I can do whatever I want whenever I want". That sense of freedom.
Eventually I took off my rose tinted glasses and realized the neighborhood wasn't all that. No sidewalks here meant hot blacktop ground, and taking my puppy on walks was going to be difficult and I'd have to get him used to just playing in our yard. I'm like 2 minutes from the beach in a beautiful town, #goals right? but... I'm far, super far from everything. If I were married, retired and settling down this would be a dream come true. Going to the beach every weekend and just living the life. In reality, I'm the youngest dude in my neighborhood by 20-30 years. I'm not a bar kinda guy and pretty introverted, but other than the beach any kind of outdoor activities or even shopping (besides groceries) is a 40+ min drive. It's very lonely and isolating. Not to mention a very very strict HOA that makes me feel limited on what I can do in my back yard. (can't plant a small garden for some fresh herbs to cook with etc).
I found a neighborhood in a town that's perfect for me. Not crazy busy but lots of shops, dog parks, outdoor events like farmers markets, all kinds of vendor events like food truck festivals and things of that nature on the weekends. Plus, only 15 min from the beach still. However, with the current interest rates, there's no way I'd be able to afford buying in that location. The specific neighborhood I fell in love with has all the things I was hoping this one would. A pool, sidewalks, a community of all ages, etc. The rent prices are almost = to the mortgage I'm paying now, and there's always a handful of houses there available for rent.

Any dealer recommendations? Bolt qualifies for 2k from state and the 7500 tax credit
So these two combined has really made me consider one for short term purchase
Any way to test drive ? Since these are near impossible to find
I would like to test drive prior to committing to nearly 30-35k purchase
Anyone had luck with getting msrp and minus 2k incentive from NY state ?

I was thinking of Darkshine and how he took consecutive losses during the monster association arc and that got me to realize something. In one punch man, the secret to explosive growth is experiencing near death and coming back. Basically taking a loss. And we know from darkshines backstory that Darkshine never fought a fight he knew he would lose, he just wanted a easy and satisfying victory. So to me that makes me think that yes he has trained extremely hard and that alone has gotten him to his already absurd strength but he is missing the kissing and near death aspect which he is only now experiencing. Garou, vomited president ugly, and golden S and really the only 3 who have pushed Darkshine into a corner and have him rethink his whole self image. So now if Darkshine can get back out there and fight win or lose no matter the opponent it’s the only way he will grow. I know he is in a slump right now but as someone who never wanted to lose, it’s the only way he will turn into even more of a beast. If near death experiences and feelings of rage turned garou from a street level character to a planetary (gargoyle form not god amped form) then imagine someone like Darkshine growing to that extent.
As a side note I feel like Darkshine should go back to bang for training and become a disciple to add to his strength. Giving Darkshine technique and finesse along side garou would be amazing to see not to mention that having these two intersecting with eachother now that they are both on the same side would be pretty cool. But I know how the webcomic goes and don’t know what they will do with darkshines manga story.

Hi all, sorry this is a long post. I'm looking for some advice. Back in November last year I started to experience skin problems with my face. Skin redness, hot flushes, a crawling sensation, extreme oiliness, ect. The rest of my body was totally fine. Went to the doctors multiple times, ran blood tests, everything came back as fine. I didn't seem to have any noticeable issues with my health, and I also eat pretty healthy/drink lots of water.
I started to suspect mold when I first noticed a musty smell coming from only a few clothes in my wardrobe. It became stronger on my clothes nearest to the wall (my wardrobe is built into the house). I did find mold on the dress I had stored right up against the wall, so I removed it and washed it immediately. I also decided to tear everything else out, removed the carpets inside and got myself a dehumidifier to run inside it for a few days. I have just now finished cleaning everything and started to put things back in my wardrobe.
During this time I also noticed I stopped getting the hot flushes and strange crawling sensations on my face. I wasn't sure if it actually was mold causing it, and the dehumidifier was helping, or if it was the antidepressants that the doctor put me on, as she suspected it was stress causing my problems. I've also had other strange symptoms, such as a runny nose (but no other cold-like symptoms), as well as issues with constipation being common. Which I never used to have as I eat quite healthy.
Well today I was getting a new tall bookshelf to replace my old one and when I pulled it out, I noticed what looks like green mold spores on the back. I was shocked, especially because the wall doesn't have any noticeable mold behind it and I didn't notice a musty smell coming from that area. The wall that my shelf was against does have a bathroom in the next room, so could it be the moisture from there?
I also moved my old shelf briefly to sit on a wall next to my wardrobe while I was cleaning, and it was probably there for a day. I don't remember seeing mold on it when I moved it then, could it be that the mold spores from my wardrobe clung onto my shelf before I moved it back?
At this point I'm panicking. I'm not really sure where to go from here. My suspicins are finally feeling true after months of not knowing why I was having mystery issues with my health. A lot of people thought I was just making things up in my head, but I could just tell something wasn't right. Now I just don't know what the next course of action is. Moving out isn't a realistic option for me.

I stayed at London Heathrow T2&3 Premier Inn on bath road last week as I was flying the following day. Arrived at 11pm and went straight to bed.
Woke up the next morning and worked until 11:30 at which point I planned to shower and head to the airport to catch my flight.
There’s was no water in the shower, ok that’s annoying but no big deal I still have time. Call reception, no answer. Call again, they send somebody up. 10mins later maintenance guy comes in and tells me I have no water (shock).
Go downstairs and politely explain the situation and ask for another room to shower, they oblige and put me in another room.
The shower works for 10 seconds then competent scalds my legs with boiling hot water and stops working entirely.
By this point it’s past 12 and I need to leave to catch my flight.
I packed and went to reception to complain and exercise my Karen and ask to speak to manager and they tell me the manager isn’t in today. Demand a refund, they tell me they can’t do that. Give me a number to call instead.
My legs were burning and I had a flight to catch so fuck it I just go and call the number instead. Speak with someone who confirms my story with the hotel except the manager was actually there and I was lied to by staff.
She informs me they will provide me with a resolution email later that day.
One week later (today) and I receive a generic email thanking me for my feedback and informing me they will refund me £25.
They didn’t provide me with water. The incompetence of a staff member led to my legs being burned. They lied to me about the manager. Almost made me miss my flight.
£25 is insulting - do I have grounds to take legal action here?

Preface:
I am a huge Lord of the Rings fan; I re-read the books typically once a year. I also adore the movies, and find all of Tolkien's legendarium absolutely awesome. Truly one of my favorite hobbies so I'd like to offer some critiques and excitement of flavor gems from Tales of Middle Earth. I won't do every card, but I'll comment on some individual cards and how WOTC did on it. I will comment on the cards abilities but only insofar as it impacts the flavor; i.e. what the card is doing not power level, etc.
To be clear: I understand there are sacrifices you need to make for the greater game, and sometimes those come first. For these articles: I am looking at each card in a vacuum, so if I seem harsh it's because I am using a single lens.
Next up: Bath Song!
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Flavor
So in the books Frodo does not go immediately from Hobbiton to Bree. Instead the story progresses slowly: Frodo plans to leave the Shire and make his way east. His first stop is a little country called Buckland; where Merry is from. Buckland is a colony of the shire, and it allows Tolkien to slowly ratchet up the feeling of adventure. Frodo first goes from one Hobbit land to another, before going to Bree (where both Hobbits and Men live) and only then going to Rivendell. At his stop in Buckland Frodo takes a bath at his 'new' home, there they sing a bath song. Here is the song:
Sing hey! for the bath at close of day that washes the weary mud away! A loon is he that will not sing: O! Water Hot is a noble thing!
O! Sweet is the sound of falling rain, and the brook that leaps from hill to plain; but better than rain or rippling streams is Water Hot that smokes and steams.
O! Water cold we may pour at need down a thirsty throat and be glad indeed; but better is Beer if drink we lack, and Water Hot poured down the back.
O! Water is fair that leaps on high in a fountain white beneath the sky; but never did fountain sound so sweet as splashing Hot Water with my feet!
It's a silly song, and one of Tolkien's many expositions which flesh out his world (and far more natural than most fantasy, even eclipsing A Song of Ice and Fire).
Color
Which brings me to my first critique: this song shouldn't be blue. The song is all about returning home after a long walk and mild adventure. It's not intellectual at all; and the bath isn't really 'water' per se but the enjoyment of making it home after a journey. It feels far more Green-Red to these eyes.
Abilities
Which, again, is my big critique. I would have made this more about 'washing away' which I think could have been a rummaging ability. Maybe a mulching ability instead of just draw and discard. I could also see something like 'remove poison counters' to build into the flavor of 'cleaning'.
This isn't bad in my opinion, it's just a touch imperfect. My guess is they made the card and then found the flavor next, which works fine. There are going to be misses and the fact it hit at all is kinda neat. It's not one of the more famous parts of The Lord of the Rings even if it's one of Tolkien's better songs.

I don't know much about online selling but want to do some investment and start a business in this sector. I have a 400 sq yard plot near Saharanpur, which is 132 km from Chandigarh 2.5 to 3hrs travel time full highway and 200km from Delhi 3 to 4 hrs. On highway Dehradun is also close by . So thinking of a logistic hub for nearby cities like Chandigarh or 2nd option opening my own seller account and start supplying in Chandigarh so want to know should i start from that plot where i have plenty of space and no money is to be spent on rental or should i buy a rented showroom in chandigarh i live in chandigarh but no property is owned here is this a good approach for online selling or if any one can guide me how to use these resources efficiently

I used to have a complete squat rack and weights in my garage, but I moved and the place I'm at won't let me have all that. I've gone to the gym more recently, but honestly I'm not a gym person, I like home workouts as I can focus 100 percent on the muscle mind connection. I purchased undersun bands, a stepping plate and an innstar bar to perform compund movements, but I found the resistance and the entire experience to be subpar. The undersun bands are great for isolation movements and light compound stuff but the leg workouts left more to be desired.
I just bought the X3 and it arrived yesterday. I did both a pull and a push workout so far, and for legs, this thing is pretty amazing. I feel a burn in my quads I don't get from the undersun setup. It's also great for pulling exercises like the row and bicep curl. However I felt the chest press was terrible since I'm not huge and the tension doesn't start near my chest. The ROM is very limited and I think I'll just do banded push-ups instead.
The quality of the everything is top notch and to me, is worth the hefty price tag. The bar is heavy and has great knurling and feels like a barbell, but is small enough to pack anywhere and bring with you during travel. The plate is also made of metal and feels nice to stand on, and the bands are chunky and much thicker than the undersun bands. The resistance I feel when doing deadlifts and squats sort of took me by surprise. Sure, you could buy all this stuff separately and hack it on your own, but I like the elegance and feel of this set, it's certainly hits more than my innstabar setup which is under 200 altogether compared to the 550 of the x3. But I feel the value lies on the fact that it's specialized for heavy band training and nothing else (besides probably harambe) feels as good. I never feel bad about splurging on fitness equipment because you can't put a price on something if it improves your health and you actually use it.
Customer service also is great as I forgot to use a promo code for 50 dollars off and they gave it to me after the fact.
No one paid me to write this, I dont have an affiliate link or anything like that. I think the Dr Jaquish guy who owns the business is a bit of a weird guy and I don't agree with everything he says, I just wanted to give the x3 a shot and I actually like it. I think it's worth the money if you want the best experience doing compound movements with bands.

Heyllo!
This morning I went for a walk in a zoo near my home. I hadn't done it in years, but planet zoo made me want to do it again (and at this time of year there's no-one there!). After that I went back to planet zoo and I'd never been so inspired. It's the first time I've done a construction that I find so beautiful (which I'll come and share with you as soon as it's a bit more advanced).
In short, it made me wonder what zoos inspired you to build and invent your own? Are there any European zoos that you particularly like?
Enjoy the game and have a good afternoon!

So I’m gonna be out of state for a week and I cannot bring the bike with me. Well, I live close to not quite in a pretty shady area (that multiple motorcycles have been stolen from recently) and I do not have a garage I’ve got a shelter but it’s not enclosed and no one will be at my house or near my house the whole time I’m gone. Well I mentioned this to my Riding Partner who has rode the bike before and I trust pretty well, and he said “let me borrow it I’ll take care of it won’t hoon it and I’ll keep it in my garage I’ve been itching to ride for a month now (his bike is having engine problems and he cannot find part to fix it except out of the other side of the country)” and I’m tempted to let him borrow it while I’m gone because it’d be safe at his place, it’s fully insured, he’s actually more experienced than me, and I trust him and his riding habits but I’m not sure if this is a bad idea or not. Any opinions? Good idea or outright stupid?

This is very long- so thank you to anyone who takes the time to actually read it all.
Currently, my husband and I are living with his parents with our 3 children. My MIL is from hell and has been abusive the entire time we have been living with them. I work in healthcare- my husband works from home. I can’t obtain a full time job where we live because I won’t get the covid booster shot. I have already gotten both doses of the Moderna, but had a serious reaction to it and my doctor refuses to allow me to get another shot. I have had my doctor write letters and I have submitted medical exemption requests to the occupational health and HR departments of 3 hospital systems in the state and they have all denied me employment. Because it is a state regulated mandate, private organizations have the right to either terminate employees or deny medical/religious exemptions if they choose to do so. I have consulted with an attorney and my lawyer said that I can sue these companies but it’s not going to help me get a full time job out of them once I slap them with a lawsuit.
So it leaves me unable to work. I have been offered jobs in other states where this requirement no longer exists. After a long period of time, I have finally found a way to come to terms with the fact that I am going to need to move away. That’s fine - but here is the problem.
I have been sucking it up and living with an abusive person and literally tortured my life for MONTHS. It got so bad that my one child threatened to commit suicide and is now in intensive treatment/therapy. Before you say anything about me keeping him in this environment, there is a reason for my madness. Living with them has finally offered me the ability to save $ for the first time in my life with 3 children. Since I have only been able to rent in my life, I finally have enough $ to afford a down payment to buy my children their own house. We have lived in 10 different houses over the course of the past 12 years of our marriage, due to always being kicked out of our rental. It was never our doing (we always paid our rent on time). It was always either the owner wanting to occupy the house again or then wanting to sell it. That is why we have been living with my in-laws, to begin with. We got kicked out of our previous house due to the owner wanting to sell it. Ofcourse, again. My kids need a stable home, and so do I. I just can’t live like this anymore. I want him to have some level of stability and not be told that they haveto go to a new school again because we have to move. AGAIN.
I have been looking for houses with my husband in this new state so that I can start one of the job offers and the deadline is quickly approaching. We have put in many offers on houses and haven’t won a single one.I have started searching for a rental, but I have a big issue with this. Let me try to explain it in a way that others can understand…
I have put up with the torture of an abusive individual for nearly a year just to save money to provide my children with stability. Every single time we have gotten a rental, they require close to $10,000 for the deposit, and we never get all of it back when we have to move out. These scum bag landlords find “reasons” to always keep the $ and not haveto return the security deposit. Out of the 9 houses we have rented, we only got a partial refund of our security deposit from one of them, and that was only because we took the dude to court and we won! We didn’t have the $ or the time to sue each of them, one by one. But the last one, we did actually follow through with and we won the case.
Being that I have put up with so much agony just to save this little bit of $, I am extremely overprotective of it and I don’t want to let it go so easily. I saved all of this $ on my own by going to work while living here, before the booster shot became a mandatory requirement and just kept working to put it away. That is how we are now affording housing. I know that it’s not a lot of $, but I worked REALLY hard for it and I am proud of myself for enduring such a horrible living situation but doing it for the best interests of my children.
So now I need advice on what to do. I really don’t want to turn this $ over to some landlord and never see that $ again. But, we haven’t won any of the offers on the houses we have found. How can I keep this job offer and start the job in the other state without having to spend every single penny I have saved and blow it on a rental? It doesn’t help that my husband has been super picky about the house as well and won’t budge on many of the ones I have found that were decent. Would you suggest that I consider the other job offers in other areas that might possibly have better housing options available? Would you give up on this particular job offer (the one that I really want to do the most) and look for housing near the others? It’s not like I don’t have other job offers available. I do. It’s just that this particular one is giving me a really good sign-on bonus ($40k) that I intended to use for future investments. I have to commit to working there for 2 full years to receive all of the funds as they are broken up into payments. The other two job offers are giving me $15k and $5k, respectfully. These are commitment bonuses to retain medical staff in facilities. The offer for the $5k one really won’t be much after taxes, so it’s not going to help much towards savings. The $15k one is in a state that I am not too keen on living in because there is literally that one hospital and then no others in the surrounding areas. So I feel it limits my options should I not really like that facility too much. I’ll kinda be stuck there with no alternatives and I won’t be able to move again.
I guess what I am trying to figure out is do I need to give up this offer and consider other ones because I can’t find housing? Or should I find a way to accept that I need to get a rental and be “OK” with giving over all of the $ I have struggled so hard to save? I just know my luck and I never get any of it back. I also don’t want to go through moving again. I want my kids to finally have a permanent home that they can count on me to keep them in and finally have us all, as a family, feel safe and happy.
Thank you to anyone who has read this. It really means a lot and I appreciate the help. Thank you so much!

This whole thing started as a nightmare and eventually got solved with a couple really great service providers. I wanted to share the experience and cost in case someone run into a similar situation.
One of our french drain sump pump drain pipes was clogged and jetting did not resolve the issue. I had to replace the 30 foot line from the side of my house to catch basin in the street.
First: Vinny at YourLocalDrainMan.com spent a 2+ hours trying to snake and jet the pipe. He found that one end was nearly collapsed; he was almost successful but in the end was unable to clear the line. He charged me less than originally quoted because he couldn't fix it and didn't spend as much time on it. Who does that?! He does. Really honest and professional person. He recommended Tom.
Second: Tom Bucci Excavation and Paving (I don't think they have a website!)- Tom only has a couple of reviews on Angi and one on Yelp but I gave him a call on Vinny's recommendation. He visited in a couple of days and laid out the plan. You get a vibe/read on certain people and I just felt super comfortable with Tom and his son Tony. Tom even spoke with the Building Dept to see if the issue closest to the basin was the result of the recent curb work to see if they'd pick up some of the cost. Unfortunately, he wasn't successful. Given that I know nothing about this stuff I was anxious and worried about what might go wrong but Tom and his crew covered everything imaginable and did a fantastic job. They:
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• Arrived on time with everything necessary to do the work.
• Crew of 4 + excavator
• Had the Gas and Water guys come out to mark the lines.
• Replaced the entire drain line.
• Made sure the gutter and sump pump connections we correctly position. One was back-pitched.
• Tied in a connection they found near the basin from the driveway.
• Cemented the surrounding area around the entry at the basin.
• Replaced all the soil. Raked it evenly. Reseeded with peat moss and straw. Here I am thinking I needed to call a landscaper!
• Kept everything tidy and cleaned up beautifully.

I paid $3400 for all of this work and honestly I feel it was worth much more. The professionalism, level of excellence, and downright respectfulness were simply outstanding.

This is very long- so thank you to anyone who takes the time to actually read it all.
Currently, my husband and I are living with his parents with our 3 children. My MIL is from hell and has been abusive the entire time we have been living with them. I work in healthcare- my husband works from home. I can’t obtain a full time job where we live because I won’t get the covid booster shot. I have already gotten both doses of the Moderna, but had a serious reaction to it and my doctor refuses to allow me to get another shot. I have had my doctor write letters and I have submitted medical exemption requests to the occupational health and HR departments of 3 hospital systems in the state and they have all denied me employment. Because it is a state regulated mandate, private organizations have the right to either terminate employees or deny medical/religious exemptions if they choose to do so. I have consulted with an attorney and my lawyer said that I can sue these companies but it’s not going to help me get a full time job out of them once I slap them with a lawsuit.
So it leaves me unable to work. I have been offered jobs in other states where this requirement no longer exists. After a long period of time, I have finally found a way to come to terms with the fact that I am going to need to move away. That’s fine - but here is the problem.
I have been sucking it up and living with an abusive person and literally tortured my life for MONTHS. It got so bad that my one child threatened to commit suicide and is now in intensive treatment/therapy. Before you say anything about me keeping him in this environment, there is a reason for my madness. Living with them has finally offered me the ability to save $ for the first time in my life with 3 children. Since I have only been able to rent in my life, I finally have enough $ to afford a down payment to buy my children their own house. We have lived in 10 different houses over the course of the past 12 years of our marriage, due to always being kicked out of our rental. It was never our doing (we always paid our rent on time). It was always either the owner wanting to occupy the house again or then wanting to sell it. That is why we have been living with my in-laws, to begin with. We got kicked out of our previous house due to the owner wanting to sell it. Ofcourse, again. My kids need a stable home, and so do I. I just can’t live like this anymore. I want him to have some level of stability and not be told that they haveto go to a new school again because we have to move. AGAIN.
I have been looking for houses with my husband in this new state so that I can start one of the job offers and the deadline is quickly approaching. We have put in many offers on houses and haven’t won a single one.I have started searching for a rental, but I have a big issue with this. Let me try to explain it in a way that others can understand…
I have put up with the torture of an abusive individual for nearly a year just to save money to provide my children with stability. Every single time we have gotten a rental, they require close to $10,000 for the deposit, and we never get all of it back when we have to move out. These scum bag landlords find “reasons” to always keep the $ and not haveto return the security deposit. Out of the 9 houses we have rented, we only got a partial refund of our security deposit from one of them, and that was only because we took the dude to court and we won! We didn’t have the $ or the time to sue each of them, one by one. But the last one, we did actually follow through with and we won the case.
Being that I have put up with so much agony just to save this little bit of $, I am extremely overprotective of it and I don’t want to let it go so easily. I saved all of this $ on my own by going to work while living here, before the booster shot became a mandatory requirement and just kept working to put it away. That is how we are now affording housing. I know that it’s not a lot of $, but I worked REALLY hard for it and I am proud of myself for enduring such a horrible living situation but doing it for the best interests of my children.
So now I need advice on what to do. I really don’t want to turn this $ over to some landlord and never see that $ again. But, we haven’t won any of the offers on the houses we have found. How can I keep this job offer and start the job in the other state without having to spend every single penny I have saved and blow it on a rental? It doesn’t help that my husband has been super picky about the house as well and won’t budge on many of the ones I have found that were decent. Would you suggest that I consider the other job offers in other areas that might possibly have better housing options available? Would you give up on this particular job offer (the one that I really want to do the most) and look for housing near the others? It’s not like I don’t have other job offers available. I do. It’s just that this particular one is giving me a really good sign-on bonus ($40k) that I intended to use for future investments. I have to commit to working there for 2 full years to receive all of the funds as they are broken up into payments. The other two job offers are giving me $15k and $5k, respectfully. These are commitment bonuses to retain medical staff in facilities. The offer for the $5k one really won’t be much after taxes, so it’s not going to help much towards savings. The $15k one is in a state that I am not too keen on living in because there is literally that one hospital and then no others in the surrounding areas. So I feel it limits my options should I not really like that facility too much. I’ll kinda be stuck there with no alternatives and I won’t be able to move again.
I guess what I am trying to figure out is do I need to give up this offer and consider other ones because I can’t find housing? Or should I find a way to accept that I need to get a rental and be “OK” with giving over all of the $ I have struggled so hard to save? I just know my luck and I never get any of it back. I also don’t want to go through moving again. I want my kids to finally have a permanent home that they can count on me to keep them in and finally have us all, as a family, feel safe and happy.
Thank you to anyone who has read this. It really means a lot and I appreciate the help. Thank you so much!

Hey everyone,
Wasn't sure where to post this but I think it's relevant enough here. If not, please tell me where this would be better posted.
I developed an anxiety disorder quite some time ago and one of the ways it affected me was by being very nervous and aware of the way I walk/move. So basically I feel very very aware of how I move my body when I walk. I try to move my body as naturally as possible. The problem is people always point it out as strange as I they say I walk kind of how a model on a runway walks. When I catch myself in my reflection while walking I can see what they mean. I'm not trying to walk like that it just seems to be how I naturally walk.
So I've been trying to change it, but I'm really struggling to do so. It's like I have nothing to go off. I want to appear more masculine and normal. Not this 'feminine model' type walk that I seem to have. I find this really quite distressing and hate going anywhere because of it because I keep obsessing over it in my mind.
Has anyone got an ideas of how I can change it? Also, please don't tell to not care and to try to forget about it. I don't want to be perceived this way as people say that "I think I'm hot, that's why he walks like that". I don't think that way, I think I'm pretty repulsive so for people to be thinking that really messes with me.
I know it seems a bit silly but it really bothers me, thanks.

Apparently olive has a dumb low smoke point and all of its beneficial compounds are lost when reaching high temperatures. I have no idea to assess how hot a pan is getting when I'm cooking
Apparently butter has been getting a CIA psyop hit job on their reputation since the 50s and its saturated fats are actually healthy for us according to the new carnivore diet proponents
Apparently a seed oils (canola, sunflower, grapeseed, cottonseed, safflower, soybean and corn oils) are the great scourge of our dietary lifetimes and a leading cause of the inflammation that leads to heart diseases
Apparently avocado oil is like a much more bland olive oil but it can be cooked at literally any temp but its also not as good for you or something

• What oil/fat, western man?
  
• do we need to eat a whole range of fats to be healthy like it is with whole foods or can we pick the healthiest one to be our daily driver for sauteeing/dressings/roasting/frying?
  
• talk antioxidant/phytonutrient/phenols to me